lazypau

one of the stupidest thing i've ever heard was an age limit for spas.. people below twenty-one need some r&r as well. anyways maybe i'll try to drag my mum along and i shall impersonate as my sister. it won't be that hard seeing that taking the bus without my ez-link while paying student's fare makes a lot of bus drivers suspicious. in fact, every single one stopped me! lovely. pass me the anti-aging cream please.

HORRORS i just realised that promos are NEXT week. BYE.

think my primary instructor hates me.. and i still suck at my checks, one million and one things to memorise. thennn popular was out of my 6mm ruled paperpoint foolscap again. but never mind, things are still cool. spent the past two hours reading the papers.. gonna try to do my work and as usual, reward myself with csi marathon at the end of the day.

newsflash: besides petrol kiosks, cold storage, jason's and liberte, ntuc has started stocking up on b&j's. cool. besides the scoop shop at the zoo, the simple life at wheelock offers b&j sundaes and there is a new franchise at united square!!! wherever that is. second branch coming up in suntec city and another in great world city!

oh yesss godiva has a new range of chocolates: the platinum collection. cool stuffs waiting for me : ))) plus my marmalade pantry date haha! yehh lots of post-promos plans.. hope at least half will materialise!

anyway, i've decided that if i'm gonna have a birthday cake next year, i would want eighteen small candles instead of a big one and eight small ones. one big candle cannot compare to ten small candles because every year that passes represents something different. i guess when i'm eighty it's a different story because i'll probably have dementia then and memories will be packaged in decades. but if i still have superpower memory, can i have eighty candles on my cake please?

did we not have them in singapore? or did i just visit malaysia a lot. we should go on a day trip to malaysia! to eat and shop mmm : ) there are also other amazing things which you cannot get in singapore like krispy kremes and david & goliath tees (limited choices). but also not found in malaysia. malaysia is unsafe.. i'm scared of getting robbed or kidnapped or raped. i'm craving for ice-cream, donuts and shepherd's pie. anywaysss i so can just live on junk food alone. and check this out!!!

in a crunch: peanut butter ice cream with fudge covered peanuts and a crispy fudge swirl!!! haha i will marry the person who is somehow able to magick this to me.. unless the didgeridoo guy proposes to me. then i'll choose him, sorry. peanut butter is totally fattening and calories-laden but i love it, i even love the new kitkat that a lot of people dislike. but chocolate is still number one in my heart. food is the way to my <3.

cannot study at home. i did like five math questions in five hours before coming back online. wrote down a list of things to do over the weekend.. i will be able to finish all of it if every hour extends by one hundred twenty more minutes.

i lost my ez-link card again..! for the second time this year : ( hopefully it's somewhere in yfc and some kind soul will return it to me because the whole hassle of making a new one is so troublesomeee.

anyways, i'm in loveeeee. he's the guy who plays the didgeridoo (i think it is) with another guy on the drums at pasir ris. he has black hair which is neatly tied up, olive skin and he has this amazing aura that i loveee. i can so imagine him in his usual grey singlet and cotton pants in our house with a zen-themed living room and a rectangular swimming pool surrounded by bamboos.. ok yes dreaming. i want to take his picture!!! strange thing is.. i cannot tell how old he is at all. i'm just in love. love transcends all boundaries.. heehee. shoot me, i'm mad. bye.

i'm flying again tomorrow but meteorological service singapore says "late morning and early afternoon showers with thunder". please don't let it come true.

i wish he would return me my money and scrammm far far far away and grow up in the meantime. an unneeded presence with unwelcome burdens and without him i can do whatever fuck i want like leaving my trash on the table and clearing it five days later because that's what i like to do. if my parents don't complain why should he? not like i'm asking him or his wife to clear. my trash does not stink as much as his dogs' poo/urine. coke light and burgers don't stink. i won't have anyone fighting to watch tv or anyone blaming me for his computer's shortcoming when it is his porn or whatever that he downloads. my computer is now totally clean after reformatting and without his impure work. i would like him to see that he is immature and incapable of dealing with problems and see that he is a loser his entire fucked up life. money wasted on him would have done so much more good spent on my sister or me. his life of luxury is not even provided by him but by the expense of my parents. the constantly changing cars. this house is not a hotel, he does not move in and out as he wishes. if he has a home of his own, keep to it and stay out of our lives. he smokes, we don't. we don't need the extra smoke around. if he is irritated by my laziness, i am truly repulsed by his incompetence. she throws bloody oranges and other strange items into the ashtray, that is disgusting. his whole life is a failure and yet he is continuing to fail and running away from all his problems. it's amazing.

he is the last person i ever want to be.

grand total of TWO girls in school today! surprisingly, one of them is me : ) absentees were shuli the chicken pox girl and three naughty ponners.. tsk. caught the ponning disease aye? but i left in between lessons to fly and i finally flewwwwwwwww again today. this instructor, micky liew, was nice to me and let me handle most of the time. skipped the wrong lesson to have lunch.. i thought it was math but it was actually chemistry. i fell asleep last night till seven am the next day when i was taking a five-minuter before starting my work. very very very unproductive of late.

so exciting talking about plans! just so fun talking about them even if they fall through eventually. but now i'm determined and driven to make ALL my plans work!

ok i started blogging at 8.26pm and it's already 9.54pm and as you can see i have nothing more to say and my eyes are getting tired from looking at the screen.. oh yes i bought wafers today i think they taste really good i am happy. plus a couple of chocolate bars.. plenty of time after promos to lose the excess weight huh. anyways i didn't realise that my bad habit of staring at people was so obvious.. doesn't help that i tend to stare back at people who stare too. so now 194716410183 people think i have a crush on them. fyi, totally not true kthxbye!

i've a whole new optimistic outlook to life now except that i am still rather prosperous and plagued with skin problems. and even though my flight was cancelled for the third time in the row, i still get to fly tomorrow provided the weather is nice to me. although my dearest form teacher will probably not be because of my equally lovely attendance.. last night i felt blissful after my three-hour nap followed by laguna beach while eating ben&jerry's. but couldn't sleep the entire night, guess i shouldn't take naps anymore. mmm yiling and i spent our evening today at the optical shop and it was muchmuch fun. i still have my perfect eyesight!!! but i want to get specs.. and another pair of shades and a good pair of aviators! today we got coloured contacts but have to wait before collecting since they don't stock no-degree ones for people like yiling and me. so everything is cool now.. except that my living room really stinks, stink is attributed to snowy arghhh yuckyuckyuck. ooh yah! super happy that they started selling chocolate pillows in school, great way to survive during tutorials/lectures!

haha today was a good day. despite my flight being cancelled again (lightning risk category 1). abigail's birthday today! the lessons passed quickly and without much effort : ))) and i think i topped the class for class chemistry test, 52.5/60! improvement from my 6.5/40 eh? : ) had a two-hour facial at new york which i dragged my mum to (because apparently she isn't a fan of facials) but in the end she liked it so both of us signed packages. went down to the tour agency but brochures aren't out.. so basically after that i ate, came home, slacked, ate and slacked till now. some well deserved r&r. however, means i will die for math time trial tomorrow. the weather is just too lurrvely!

coming online is harmful to studies.. i came online just to check flying schedule and spent two hours here already. i haven't shopped in how mother long.. the last few proper things i bought were my mother's birkenstocks and my hairbands wow. it's such a dilemma, sometimes i tell myself that i should save up for investments (eg. expenses for when i'm overseas or capita) but then i see lovely watches or belts or clothes or lomos and i am like "i SOOO need to get that!" opportunity costs. i have a new clock!!! it's like this 1950s wooden box radio kind of clock! and lately i've been thinking about a themed room (if i get to redesign when we move). i've decided but it'll involve painting my wardrobe black.. recipe for disaster.

wow i feel like going to school late tomorrow so i can skip pe. which reminds me, shuli is down with chicken pox, i really really really hope i don't get it. chahsie just gave me a solution for my aforementioned dilemma, save half and spend half. shall start dividing my moolah now! : )))

i know it's going to be ten soon and i was supposed to start on whatever homework a couple of hours ago but i got distracted by cleo and thought about cruel intentions. watched loads of tv last night, cruel intentions 3, LAGUNA BEACH season two first episode, i want a famous face, friends and one tree hill. firstly, i love love love laguna beach! i love trey! i love lo! i hate kristin! she is a total bitch and ha ha she has gained weight since the last season. secondly, cruel intentions (1, 2 or 3) is one of my favourite movies. i guess the whole sluttiness and bastardness, with money, deception and drugs, thing is kind of alluring. how crafty, sly and cunning these little pricks can be.. mmm it's just so evil and satisfying. can't wait for after promos, can watch million of movies! hide and seek, dangerous liaisons, cruel intentions, kill bill, entire season one of one tree hill and more more more more more!


sarah michelle gellar looks a bit like the main perpetuator in cruel intentions 3 in this picture. haa sister-in-law is watching some stupid show outside which is really loud, noisy and distracting and they still dare to complain that i steal their milk?! the consequence of watching this distracting show is my As in my promos, which is my S papers, which is my scholarships, which is my university admission, which is my life, which is priceless. milk is only two dollars per litre so please kindly turn the damn tv off and go watch it in your room.

dreaming too big, living in the clouds.

i am not going to initiate anything anymore. it will just make you take me for granted.

OOH! damn happy. they rescheduled me for tuesday's morning flight! yes!!! haze, clouds, rain, please move over to malaysia or something, thanks!!! damnation, other people are starting on sortie 4 but my third sortie's duty wasn't completely carried out. i want to finish first!

wow competitive streak in me is showing. but don't worry.. just let me show off a bit because i seldom get the chance. please keep in mind i am not some selfish asshole who won't share notes or whatever because i am afraid others will do better than me. i hate such pricks! school is funny because of my class, must say i am quite thankful for them, especially the girls. please note i said funny, not fun. school is still about nine hours too long.

excitement in my life is (usually) inversely proportional to blog entries' lengths.

only got to fly for 15 minutes before returning because of poor weather conditions, poor visibility. but never mind, at least i got to skip pe, gp and physics tutorial. and i met ben teong at the seletar camp bus stop! haha what a coincidence.

currently learning the art of ignoring a certain someone's presence.

if i sat behind myself during lectures or anything, i would hate me because i fidget loads, talk too much and disturb the people beside me. pretty annoying eh.

i am a happy girl! went out with mummy and we tried dao siao mian (directly translated as knife slice noodles) as recommended by juanjuan, went shopping but ended up buying food (surprise, surprise) and more food. guess what is sitting in my fridge now? PHISH FOOD!!! heehee. finally bought a local magazine today.. just to feed my insatiable appetite for magazines. my mum gives me a disapproving look when i buy magazines, and she used to give me disapproving looks when i bought books, and she used to give me disapproving looks when i bought assessment books. guess i shouldn't read huh.

i am currently ignorant of all current affairs now because i have not been reading the papers or watching the news or surfing the internet for such. very self-centred, i know, not giving much thought to the dismembered body parts or hurricane katrina. ripped this off stef's blog, as she aptly puts it, it puts things into perspectives. we are too spoilt a bunch to ever empathise with such people. we compare ourselves to those who spend thousands at a go without the bat of an eyelid but seldom to those who has never even touched a fifty-dollar note. that is why i like nick lachey.. he is practical and thrifty unlike his other half who has nothing in between her ears.

enough r&r for the day. goodbye world, hello tv! haha : )

four tests tomorrow, seven periods worth, three hundred and fifteen minutes altogether. physics, econs, gp and chemistry (in this order). die die die and die (not in order).

was feeling pmsy again so i gobbled down a bar of toblerone without really tasting anything.

IT IS ALWAYS STUCK AT MY THROAT. i wish i could purge it out. (in case anyone was wondering, this has no reference to bulimia whatsoever.)

am tired.. today i ate 7.5 servings of some really nice mint/dark chocolate that adrian bought me from candy empire so i am a fatter girl. spent seven hours on a chemistry assignment that should have taken two and a half hours! slowslowslow. came home and wanted to reward my conscientious self with csi supreme sunday but my stupid ass of a brother is watching some chinese movie which ends at 11 : ( so here i am online giving myself a break before i cleanse my face which is full of gunk especially since i walked through smoke from those sparklers (wow they create TONS of smoke).

i committed the greatest ego-deflater yesterday: i went to try on jeans. kthanksbye.

woo i have discovered the joys of using totally adorable msn icons. super kawaii!

kristin davis and katie holmes look alike.

i've decided that my dream university is stanford.. mmm it sounds perfect to me! sounding bigheaded.. but a girl can always dream : )

when we were having lunch at koufu today, yiling and i were buying xiaowan (not you, sijia), the guy there commented that we were very tall!

me: haha but she's taller
him: ahh yes. she can be a model!
me+yiling: hahaha
him: you can be a.. teacher! you look like one!

i am traumatised for life.

btw if it sounded like my sister is in villa wellness, she is not. my brother just thinks she should be. she is in new zealand spending a lot of money! my mum just sent her 3000 that day and she called back a couple of weeks later asking for moolah. i will stop spending so much on food (i bought two toblerones today, totally unnecessary, especially since i am miss elephant and i still have a lot of junk food at home), and put my money to good use.

how to use my money wisely
1. always save for a rainy day, you never know when you need the extra dough
2. lomos! (i am happy that more and more people are getting into photography, it's beautiful)
3. polaroid film (for extra speshul moments)
4. books
5. my future apartment/car/living expenses
6. clothes (you can never go wrong with this unless you have horrendous horrendous taste)
7. good haircare products (everything is rebelling)
8. miscellaneous (haha there is always a way to cheat)

jon johnson is hot : ) anyways, i've always thought that newlyweds was a really boring show but actually it's quite funny. nick is too smart for jessica!!! she's such a retarddd sometimes. but it is just hilarious to see both of them, especially when she's doing something stupid.

(while they were making each other valentine's day cards/gifts)
jessica: how do you spell wounded? is it w-o-u-n-d-e-d?
nick: what do you need to spell that for? where're you going to use the word wounded anyways?
jessica: just tell me how to spell it!
nick: why don't you use bludgeoned? it has the same meaning.
jessica: what?
nick: bludgeoned! (sniggering to self)
jessica: (i am a bimbo and i don't know what on earth he is talking about)

we have our singapore-versh of jessica too!

it is interesting to note that the three-hour physics lesson today passed faster than the usual 45-minute period. decided to get on bus 89, ate with the girls (gladys, yiling, shuli, abi and alden haha) at compasspoint (my first time there) but didn't go to kster with them because it was too far. i reached yfc really early! i saw my instructor but i wasn't ready, after i got ready, i waited super long but i didn't see him and he didn't see me until like half an hour later. so he asked me why i took so long and i couldn't be bothered to explain so i just said i was in the toilet. anyhows, he said i am the most guniang and softest he has ever come across : ( i need to "toughen up". i went "oOoo woah!" in the air and well, apparently i am the first to ever say that. sometimes i just say "you have control, sir" in a singsong manner. i will speak with a deep gruff voice the next time round.i didn't memorise the checks either so he failed me, 3 (8 being the best but no one ever gets that). however, i got 5 for handing over/following through and 6 for trimming! sadly, i got a 4 overall. therefore, i am determined to mug my checks inside out!!! watch me!

watched singapore vs malaysia at toa payoh with netballers.. they make netball seem so graceful and easy! singapore won 55-44. both goalshooters have legs that reach to my neck. their jerseys/skirts/windbreakers are nice! and the malaysian teachers/coaches have matching tudungs! the tickets came with some singapore paraphernalia (flags and two noise-making inflated sticks) and khong guan cream crackers.

oh yes, while we were waiting for the late girls, some really strange guy came up to talk to us for the longest time. i've concluded that i am strangely patient but i get impatient really easily too. this is a simplified and extremely generalised version.. but goes something like that: i get impatient when people are clearly incompetent and not performing up to their abilities or when i am not getting my way. actually i am rather impatient with closer friends, i don't know why.. i shall publicly apologise for my impatience!

random things i want to say:
1. i need to mug for promos
2. i need to mug for flying
3. i need to shop for lingerie
4. i need to shop for aviators
5. i want to shop for tops, shoes, jeans and skirts
6. my school has new vending machines!!! potato chips, m&m's and chocolate bars!!!
7. singapore is too hot and humid to live in
8. i want a new bag for school
9. i bought my green barney rustle blanket crumpler in march (pre-ordered!) so i hate all those who got it after me especially those in my school
10. brandon said he'll marry me if i become a pilotress
11. i haven't been drinking enough water
12. it is strange how people remember each other from primary school (this yfc guy, i told him i found him familiar and i asked which primary school he was from. haha he even remembers my class. i am touched.)
13. my entries are getting longer and longer
14. so, goodbye!

today was a day of smells. dear chinese residents of singapore, i beg of you, please STOP burning incense/paper/whatever.. as much as you should pay respect for the dead, please spare a thought for the living. we need fresh air thankyouverymuch. and smoke contributes to haze and all that, means more flights will be cancelled and my career will be ruined thanks to you and your obsession with fire. today, i came home and wanted to play with snowy but i was greeted with the sight of her poo at the entrance of my bro's room so i closed the door. after a couple of hours, i decided that she must be really lonely, but this time i was greeted with the foulest smell ever and i slammed the door before i even switched on the light. the entire house stank when dsquare came home and opened the door and were cleaning up the mess. i sook refuge in my room and opened my windows (which i open about three times a year haha). snowy's poo and fart is THE BOMB. the ministry of defence should consider using her poo as a biological weapon of some sort. haha my brother was playing with his new remote-controlled car when it detected some poo.. i am never going to touch that car.

while i was watching villa wellness..
brother: you're watching the show which pohling (my sister) is in, is it?

hurhurhur laughing at her being overweight for the past seventeen years was a bad choice because i am reaching her weight soon. this is karma. my brother is getting fat too. my sister and i call my brother xpfd which stands for xiao pimple-faced driver, and see, i am becoming a pimple face too. this is retribution.

ah freak the smell has diffused into my room i am going to pasir ris chalet to sleep tonight bye.

hi i am online again but only because i wanted to do pw, but i realised my files are saved on the other computer.. therefore, blogtime! groundschool today was slack, i fell asleep every single time i clicked 'next' while exploring the basic radiotelephony programme.. it was really boring after a while plus the voice had this indian accent, for example 'one' was pronounced as 'vun'. briefing was funny because of the lecturer, de witt, who kept on jacking the two indians and saying a lot of funny things. i wonder how much silkair pilots earn.. sia should start accepting female pilots! the mcps must be behind all this.. they will soon realise that there is a serious shortage of pilots and they will have to recruit us, and they'll find out we're actually better than males, and all the male pilots will get lower pay than us and will only get to fly to places like malaysia and stay in three-star hotels while we stay in six-star hotels and have shopping trips in paris on our allowances.. mmm! ok sorry, was just daydreaming.

after not buying a single magazine for more than a month, i bought cosmogirl today! nicole richie was on the cover last issue and now it's paris hilton. paris resembles seth's mother in the oc, if you look carefully.

i looked into my drawer yesterday and i saw this green diskette which chah gave me on my birthday (with a whole bunch of other things).. i remembered what it meant and.. haha chah just knows me too well. the past makes me jaded and all i want to do is start on a clean slate. it used to be do-now-think-later, and now it's think-now-never-get-to-do. it is strange how something that meant so much at that point in time means less than nothing now. things only seemed to mean a lot but i think it was more of me psyching myself up to spice up my life. but like i've said, not important now although it irritates me when i look back to see how stupid/naive/bored i was. since i am not as stupid/naive but still equally bored, i am going to entertain myself with chemistry but more of stupid shows than chemistry, of course (ashton and seann!!!).

before i depart, i found this picture of on beat's friendster..

sam soh / beat / me blowing spastic kisses (alma mater night)

last night my parents and dsquare went on a cruise so i was all alone. i had a tough decision to make, to stay over at sijia's or come back home to accompany my dogs. what helped me make my decision was i had no breakfast at home.. haha. anyway our whippet is called snowy, but it's not completely white. it's a nice colour which i cannot describe with white areas.. it will grow to be about twice the size of ginger. i had twix and musketeers yesterday. then i went to newton with sijia and her parents rawr i am an elephant. my infinite growth will shame even.. chicken with steroids (as suggested by chah).

registered for my SATs test already woo just have to complete some questionnaire and send it back. since i am not going for the five-hour-every-saturday-1500-bucks prep class, i will buy the fatass book for the new SATs from kinokunyia and hopefully i will do well enough : ( if not i can only go to a community college and major in funeral services (yes, there is such a major). the problem with me is that i am indecisive, not firm and lacking in passion. although we don't have to declare majors till later in university, it is still important to know roughly what we want so that we can apply for colleges which are better in those areas. plus it costs about a hundred for each application so we have to choose carefully.

crap i wanted to pack my room before going for yfc mass briefing but i spent too much time online and it's not saturday night yet i know. but i will not go online tonight because there is dude, where's my car? on at 10.30pm so please go watch!!! seann william scott is some funny shit haha. and there's chah's favourite ashton. so go watch (unless you cannot appreciate such shows, then i suggest you go do.. integration or something)!

my tooth is aching!!! i swear it's going to drop out one of these days. my aircon is leaking!!! it is practically raining in my room : (((

anyways i feel absolutely disgusting now because a few gigantic pimples are currently emerging eeks. i am so sorry i ever laughed at extremely acne-prone people last time. i will never laugh at one again because it would mean i am mocking myself : ( please take this away!!!

also, i would like to add that i like to observe people. i stare at people from time to time, some more, some less. it is a rude habit but i think it is interesting to do so. i apologise if i have caused any distress to anyone, including people like jaesung and avinesh because i think i stare at them a lot in class. i also tend to stare at people who stare. interestingly, some people just escape my notice. that's just too bad.

how come my computer doesn't seem to detect the subwoofers??? oh bother. i've been trying not to go online because i tend to waste much time each time i do, however i need to check flying schedules regularly.. i will not go online until.. saturday night. ok toodleloo i am going to sleep and study tomorrow with chillin'!!! i am really excited to do chemistry tomorrow. and yes i am not going to school, "sick" again.

felt like eating crystal jade's abalone congee today but went to simple life with sijia instead, she had hainanese chicken rice and i had nasi lemak. usually i refrain from eating hawker food in restaurants but this was quite worth it! for one, the fish was in fillet form and had no bones : ) perfect for lazy people like me. thennn we had ben & jerry's for dessert!!! phish food is our all-time favourite yummm.

chinleng commented that i've changed a lot since.. whenever, the most amongst all our friends. i think she's right. there are good and bad sides to it. sijia said we have to compromise with some stuff if we want other things (go figure).

and there is nothing to look forward to in school anymore. i would probably skip school tomorrow but i don't want to miss out on lectures and the important tutorials like chemistry and maths. mmm. i will install things into my computer now. i am a geek!

oh my life is changing every day
in every possible way
and oh my dreams is never quite as it seems
never quite as it seems