lazypau

parkway is my new hangout.. i kind of like it because i somehow everyone else seems a little bit more foreign to me and there is starbucks!!! ok and coffee bean. too bad starbucks is outdoors so studying there is ruled out. coffee is damn expensive too i realised i spent all my freaking money on coffee or chai or whatever drinks.

school has been more more more than a few hundred piles of shit. my mum got called into meeting my form teacher (only those who did badly for mid-years had to have their parents meet the teachers, and if they got straight Fs, then to the principal), mainly because i always skip school. well i must say i have a pretty nice form teacher although, in his words, i seem to "worry him endlessly" as i "always look like i am going to die/faint" in school. i probably have the i-would-rather-be-anywhere-else-in-the-world-than-here face when i am in school. how unfortunate that it is true i feel that way. can feel that i'm not the only one who is starting to detest school increasingly.. sometimes i also feel like i piss people off when i have this fuckshit attitude. if it annoys you, pleaseee tell me (really). i'd just like people to know it's not the people in school that i can't stand but just the damn school itself. seriously i think if i had sat through the principal's talk to our class on thursday i would have probably blown up at her and tried to stab her with my pen. guess it was a good thing i didn't go. oh i digressed. i was supposed to go along for the PTM but of course i chose to sleep. really sorry for pissing my CT off (not like he'll read this). my purpose is never to irritate teachers (except tazzo). it just happens as a side effect of whatever i'm doing. and a while before this i got called into the VP's office for reasons unfathomable. in short, i can't wait for fucking jc to be fucking over.

hum, anyway i guess the PTM session was good for me since my mum said i can have anything i want as long i "study hard". i hate it when my mum cares about what other people think. she said i should "prove to other people". well, guess what? i don't give half a shit about "other people". i have nothing to prove to people. i don't even need to prove to myself. the only damn things worth proving are probably math equations and physics formulae. so i told her that it's her problem if she cares about what other people think because i don't. another thing is i hate it when parents try and compare their children with other people. thankfully this has only happened a couple of times for me. because i tactfully (not) pointed out that they are also not as wonderful as _____(insert random name)'s parents. mmm i do make a lot of sense sometimes i should become a philosopher.

well actually i'm not as full of angst as i sound. watching guess guess guess on sunday nights simply lift my mood because jacky wu is just simply full of shit!!! actually adrian reminds me of him. they could compete for being the most goddamn irritating shit in the world hahahahaha.

yeah ok seven more hours till school starts and since i bet with darren on the physics mcq, i can't get starbucks coffee tomorrow!!! damn it. i'll make a trip before school on tuesday (if i even decide to go). night larlings.