lazypau

man, i really hate talks with teachers (except with like julie koh and miss ko etc haha). nowadays i'm trying to be really good so i keep my words to a minimum because i have experienced what great damage my words can do. crap i ran out of bread and cheese so i might have to go sandwichless tomorrow :( hohum it's only a monday night and already i can't wait for friday/saturday to come. school, ironically, is depriving me of time to study.

sigh i am a page full of regrets.

please take a look here at beautifultrashh for some nice accessories! handmade by cat, and all lovely. hmmm and i think my next fervently-downloaded series after the OC will be life as we know it. it's actually based on the novel "doing it" which cover i posted a few months back. ok going to do some math, you know, some newton-raphson crap, and then i will sleep so i can wake up to grab some bagels/muffins and a cuppa from starbucks because i loooovvveee starbucks. recently having coke light and root beer light (i like the taste, seriously) cravings. i know they are bad for my teeth, i can practically feel the corrosion going on.

parkway is my new hangout.. i kind of like it because i somehow everyone else seems a little bit more foreign to me and there is starbucks!!! ok and coffee bean. too bad starbucks is outdoors so studying there is ruled out. coffee is damn expensive too i realised i spent all my freaking money on coffee or chai or whatever drinks.

school has been more more more than a few hundred piles of shit. my mum got called into meeting my form teacher (only those who did badly for mid-years had to have their parents meet the teachers, and if they got straight Fs, then to the principal), mainly because i always skip school. well i must say i have a pretty nice form teacher although, in his words, i seem to "worry him endlessly" as i "always look like i am going to die/faint" in school. i probably have the i-would-rather-be-anywhere-else-in-the-world-than-here face when i am in school. how unfortunate that it is true i feel that way. can feel that i'm not the only one who is starting to detest school increasingly.. sometimes i also feel like i piss people off when i have this fuckshit attitude. if it annoys you, pleaseee tell me (really). i'd just like people to know it's not the people in school that i can't stand but just the damn school itself. seriously i think if i had sat through the principal's talk to our class on thursday i would have probably blown up at her and tried to stab her with my pen. guess it was a good thing i didn't go. oh i digressed. i was supposed to go along for the PTM but of course i chose to sleep. really sorry for pissing my CT off (not like he'll read this). my purpose is never to irritate teachers (except tazzo). it just happens as a side effect of whatever i'm doing. and a while before this i got called into the VP's office for reasons unfathomable. in short, i can't wait for fucking jc to be fucking over.

hum, anyway i guess the PTM session was good for me since my mum said i can have anything i want as long i "study hard". i hate it when my mum cares about what other people think. she said i should "prove to other people". well, guess what? i don't give half a shit about "other people". i have nothing to prove to people. i don't even need to prove to myself. the only damn things worth proving are probably math equations and physics formulae. so i told her that it's her problem if she cares about what other people think because i don't. another thing is i hate it when parents try and compare their children with other people. thankfully this has only happened a couple of times for me. because i tactfully (not) pointed out that they are also not as wonderful as _____(insert random name)'s parents. mmm i do make a lot of sense sometimes i should become a philosopher.

well actually i'm not as full of angst as i sound. watching guess guess guess on sunday nights simply lift my mood because jacky wu is just simply full of shit!!! actually adrian reminds me of him. they could compete for being the most goddamn irritating shit in the world hahahahaha.

yeah ok seven more hours till school starts and since i bet with darren on the physics mcq, i can't get starbucks coffee tomorrow!!! damn it. i'll make a trip before school on tuesday (if i even decide to go). night larlings.

hellooo many things have happened in the long time i was away. for one, i moved into my new house.. and for some reason the internet had some problems (and i am still in the midst of fixing everything properly) so i'll blog first before i get down to all the cabling. let's start with something that i don't care about, i.e. school (which explains why i am not in school today, or last wednesday or last monday or last last friday). for those who are actually interested, i got CDEO for mid-years.

next, onslaught of birthdays!!! minjen turned nineteen on 14 july : ))) kexian bought taboo from toys'r'us and we had so much fun and made so much noise playing taboo in coffee bean!

NABEI everything is driving me up the wall. i can't believe i still haven't done anything to hurt myself or anyone else amidst the fuck-upedness of everything. nothing seems to be going smoothly, much less my way. plus i have been craving for starbucks for forever but i haven't gotten a chance to grab a cuppa.

right now, my misfortunes definitely outweight my blessings. i had quite yummy vegetarian kway chap today, and i watched six episodes of OC because i couldn't paint my room today.

anyway i am really tired of trying and i don't feel like doing anything anymore. including my birthday. i'll just snuggle up in bed all day and sleep. and school, it doesn't even exist for me anymore.

la france, s'il vous plaît gagner ce soir l'allumette (translation: france, please win tonight's match.). my left eyelid has been twitching for hours. i hope it's a good omen but it doesn't really matter except that it's pretty unnerving and annoying. speaking of which, i watched just my luck today with stef and daph! loving the lindsay : )

came home around 9p.m. and all i wanted to do was just die in my bed and sleep forever but i was coerced to start packing especially when we were supposed to move some things over tonight but by the time i'm through with a trunkful of books and three boxes of clothes, i find my parents SLEEPING. i mean i talked to my mum halfway and she just fell asleep on me. i am past my sleepy mode, so i'll file my mountainful of worksheets before sleeping. guess i won't watch the match tonight. i'll have nervy spazs along the way anyways. bad thing about staying up is i always always always get the munchies. shall busy myself like a bee!

what a chimney today. gawddd my knees hurt like fuck. it's about 4a.m. but i'm going to watch some OC anyways. tomorrow (or today, technically) is a sunday after all. pretty please pray for brazil to win BY FULLTIME. i'm watching OC instead of soccer because i am suffering from some serious soccer-fatigue and i cannot wait for world cup to end so i will stop brooding over my losses. knn. anyone has a job to introduce me? preferably something that requires little time, no energy and basically to do nothing. thanks. chocolate squares (caramel whip!!!) or all butter shortbread (29% butter omggg)?

anyway i think i'm really starting to hate soccer laaa haha i lost sooo much. actually i won a lot of matches but the matches i lost, i bet a lot on. so overall i'm down two hundred plus which is a big fat sian. something more exciting, i'm finally moving! next week, i guess. must think of a colour to paint my new room which hopefully isn't too small. and yeah i haven't seen the house because i didn't go to see potential houses with my family. i'll miss my house and pasir ris. pasir ris is a place of breeze and tranquility.