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wah knn i can't believe i have to go for a motherfucking gp exam tomorrow and there're lectures till 5.05p.m.!!! wednesday and friday hold 5 straight lectures in a row while thursday has 3 and all these excluding tutorials. i hate mjc, they can all suck cock and die somewhere ok?! i know i should stop complaining but i really cannot help it.

because i had a nice time the past few days. wanted to swim/tan yesterday but the skies were not with us, so i watched poisedon with my lezzie mate, it's not bad a show! shopped but didn't get anything because.. nothing seems to fit nicely. went to polo club with chah+giff today! as usual, i turned a lovely grey and i am radiating heat now. ate a lot today wahhh. cannot stop my mouth. i have been craving carrot cake (the rectangular chinese ones) for the past couple of weeks. omg i love it!!!

for those who were wondering, i did go to somewhere romantic with my lezzie mate on saturday and we had lovely candlelit dinner facing the river. and i did watch the taiwanese drama serial from the start.. but i am not as feng kuang as the rest of the girls so i am only at episode 11.

why do i keep putting myself in that position? it is like going back over and over again to the thing that kills you the most.

er anyway i did some quiz thing and it is accurate to some extent. it said that i should major in theatre, and my other strong interests are mathematics, dance (ha ha ha i am not fairy i must tell you), engineering, socialogy, psychology and anthropology. i like the idea of doing theatre actually but i don't think i am brave enough to take a step like that.

hum have been pretty clumsy lately, besides my wonderful papercuts, i bit my tongue very hard the other day and it hurt sooo much for a few days and i managed to bite it again today??? must be a sign that i have been eating too much. i have a hugeee popping-out bruise from banging into the side of the swimming pool as well. my tongue truly hurts.

sigh i must go prepare myself mentally for the mental torture tomorrow that is called school. double pooey with no knobs.

pooey lately. self-high singing with yiling waiting for the bus to take us to jalan besar. soccer match was sooooo pooey because mj played well and we scored in two beautiful goals and were up 2-1 until the last 15 minutes or so. the tmd kayu referee gave jkhoo a freaking red card and things started going down from there plus lady luck started to smile on vj. so they scored three freaking tyco shit goals and the whistle went off and it was like omggg. so much sadnosity. was so sad to see something that the boys really wanted taken away from them. anyway after that i think people were very high-strung or something because there was some bad tension between the few of us. hohum but i went to eat with shanchun, oonyong and alden at marina with the intentions of going to alden's sister's place to eat but ended up at carl's jr. ooh i haven't shopped there before!

all of today's plans didn't work out and so i really declare war with my attached friends who are very pooey and that i am not going to talk to them unless they talk to me. because i am vair tired of trying. i watched five hours of desperate housewives until 4a.m. but i was rudely woken up by the loud dripping of the raining phenomenon in my room (my aircon) at around 9a.m.. there is nothing on tv. man, cable tv in singapore sucks shit. i might have to resort to watching the taiwanese drama serial on youtube that the other satc girls are obsessed about. which i might. my productive plan for today is to arrange my worksheets and file them away proper. going to meet my lezzie mate for dinner later, probably somewhere romantic.

something strange has been going on with me lately.. i've been getting A LOT of papercuts. on my right hand, i have one on my fourth finger, one on my middle and two on my index which hurts!

actually i'm still quite sleepy so perhaps i will go sleep.

green slipped out of school at about 1p.m. today.. partly because i didn't feel like going for math s after school, gp and pe are useless and econs is blah cos i am a conkhead at it now, but MAINLY cos maybeline that piece of shit TRICKED me into going to watch tennis finals with her. and the worst thing was she wasn't even super interested in watching, just because a certain PHD was there. but i forgave her because i am full of maturosity even though i was a total extrasocity there. however, i love watching tennis so it was quite alright. rj lost for both girls and boys, vj girls and ac boys got first. also i got to see a lot of darlings, charmie, sheila, debby, debbie, aneeta, cat the anorexic, and so on. humdeedum i just hope my form teacher isn't too free to read blogs if not he will not sign my green slips anymore. i did feel very nauseous today. it must be the heat.

ooch i must go remove my ah-lian/donnatella versace-ish nail polish now before i cause more misunderstandings that i am an ah-lian of sorts and then err do some work. hopefully.

hellooo i have nothing to wear tomorrow night! for one, i hate rewearing my clothes and for another, my choice of clothes has been cut down due to my increasing size. oh, the horrors.

on a lighter and brighter note, my favourite hippies won the amazing race!!! i don't even keep up with most of the seasons except this one where i started halfway cos there was nothing to watch on tv. i am totally in love with the hippies. bj & tyler rule! even though they are total laidback hippies, they have really good human relation skills, can speak few languages including jap fluently and are freaking college graduates from harvard and uc santa cruz!!! i was only semi in love with them but then i heard them speak jap and i was like :o omg i am in lurve! they beat the competitive frat boys, eric & jeremy, to win one million dollars! the other team in the final leg consists of ray & yolanda, a black couple. can't really remember the other teams, except this old couple, fran & barry, who are totally sweet and loving and they made it quite far into the race! ok since tyler is in love with some japanese girl, i will take bj even though he is shorter. woo woo woo!

have also been following lost, so you think you can dance, american idol, csi, svu amongst many other shows. i am a tv addict. but no longer confined to mtv.. man i don't even watch anything on mtv nowadays. except for motormouth yesterday which was quite funny hahaha hidden cameras taping people singing and doing a lot of funny shit in a car on the road.


doesn't this picture remind you of the magic school bus??? the one with miss frizzle with her frizzly orange hair and fun kids and the COOL SCHOOL BUS which can do about anything in the world! i remember one episode where it became very small and it went into a nose to see how it smells stuff and it pictured smell molecules as jigsaw pieces fitting into the walls of the nose. wah so educational! especially compared to the shit they show on CHILDREN'S CHANNELS now talking about LOVE and BOYS and MAKE-UP when they should be watching princess starla and captain planet and the magic school bus. oh and i must add that i totally love the simpsons, even after all these years. the school bus also has an iguana thing but no iguana beats quincy (from foxtrot)!!!


SEE HOW CUTE IT IS. it ROCKS. and i love foxtrot too.

woo i am no longer a loser because i finally went to watch a movie after my last movie, final destination 3! i managed to catch the da vinci code today at cathay together with daphne and stef. it was ok, i thought they brought out the essence of the book but people shouldn't pin such high hopes on it and expect it to be fantastic because then they would come out disappointed. hum we had ben & jerry's after that and then dinner. i love the tie-dye stuff at b&j cos they are very hippie-esque and of course reminded me of bj (wow bj -- ben&jerry?) and tyler. just had some huge ass chicken pie (supposedly the best pie around in singapore? i forgot, but it's supposed to be good anyway) which is really yummy and i am so full now.

hum i read off a snapple cap just now that smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight, so if you are going on some weight-loss regiment.. smell your fruits more before you eat them. or if you are truly obese like me, just smell the damn fruits and then give them to any of your family members. i tried smelling the bananas in our banana split (with phish food, oatmeal cookie and dublin mudslide, topped with hot fudge and m&m's) just now and maybe i felt lighter but then after consumption, i wouldn't really say the same thing.

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS. i just have to freaking list the pros and cons in my head and i will have such a hard time deciding which outweighs what. it is such a bad habit and i cannot stop it and it is the root of all my indecisiveness. thinking before deciding is good but i am sure thinking too much isn't. i am so unimpulsive now it bores me so much that i will do my math assignment just to show what an exciting person i am.

sigh ok i just got the news that rj lost to sa 15-10 in the rugby finals omggg.

and my knees have been totally killing me nowadays and all i do is walk from class to class to lecture theatre to canteen.

really can't stand it when someone is such a freaking exhibitionist. i'm alright if it's artfully done but that is just yuck. very off-putting. anyway i won't continue because she didn't tread on my toes or anything.

someone has informed me that teachers randomly search for students' blogs. so free. if any teacher from freaking meridian junior college sees this, i would like to say that i hate the school. firstly because it believes in the welfare of the school and not the students (i think majority of this stems from esther lai's ways). i could really rant about this point forever. secondly, it leaks. actually it rains indoors. then, it has lousy aircons in lecture theatres which turn off once the bell rings but twenty-four blasting aircons in the hall which is damn bloody ridiculous. TIMETABLE SUCKS COCK. fuck you for making us having so many lessons till late everyday and very unneccesarily gp classes every-bloody-day. and we must go back for one entire week for june holidays for extra lectures??? the school system itself has done nothing for me. so one day when my voice is heard in the community, i would really like to say i give no thanks to my jc at all. i will also never donate money to the school, ever. teachers, to me, are under the school system but they are also a separate entity because they are individuals. but that doesn't mean i give credit to all of them. students/friends/classmates are of course totally different because we more or less suffer under this fucked up shit. but right now at this moment i feel not anger because i am really so over this.

i feel irritation cos something has been in my left eye for the past few hours and if i continue rubbing my eye, my eyeball will drop out.

hahaha for some reason this picture just cracks me up we look like monkeys. taken in the cab on our way to sally's party in march.


hum i don't know what to do about my hair. when i tie it up, my ponytail looks very ugly and retarded so i can't stand that. i can't braid my hair. i can't even freaking bun it up. but letting my hair down in school is very act chiozzz to me and the weather just screams at me not let my hair down. OK SHAVE! actually i just wanted to blog about the irritation in my eye, but i digressed as usual, so bye.

very strange.. i have really been doing nothing of late but i still remain tired. i feel tired and i look tired (as informed by various people). this has been the case for quite a while already. i really wonder where the problem is because i can't pinpoint it.

anyway went to meet daphne and yuet today! had pepperlunch for the first time, it's alright but the more i ate my salmon and rice, the hungrier i got. i think i was craving for something salty or ice-creamy but i got a double chocolate donut instead. a mistake cos it left me feeling full, fat, lardy and thirsty. haha i got super high here and there. OK I WAS REALLY HIGH/MAD WHEN I SAW THESE. so i might sell my old ones (they are in PERFECT condition, wrapped and all) and buy the whole set of the new ones, or just get one/two of the new covers. i have this version (except for the dancing in my nuddy-pants one, it's in a different version cos i just couldn't find the same versh, and i haven't bought the boy entrancers one). so if anyone wants any of these, just tell me? ooh and my angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging is autographed by the author herself so i am really confused about what i should do. i wished i owned kinokunyia. ok i will stop obsessing with that. had a really good time with them and i always feel like i can be totally down-to-earth with them, which is what i really need sometimes. kissykissymuamua!

book covers are getting super nice! arghhhhhhh okok i will try and marry the heir of kino. haha freak louise rennison (the author of the georgia nicolson series as obsessed above) is so funny. will. stop. obsessing. omgomgomg i love books i am a geek i can read all day and read my whole life away!

singapore doesn't have enough bakeries. not those selling curry buns and kaya cakes and donuts and cheesebuns (i like those too, of course) but those selling really yummylicious chicken pies and pastries and such. there were plenty of those when i went to new zealand. when you walked past them, you could smell the pastry in the air. so vair tempting. it was vair fun because my sister and i would of course be tempted and follow the smell trail into the shop. then we would pick a few and we would buy them and eat them all and they were all so yummy and we were satisfied like that. i wouldn't mind having a replica of the fish&chips place in dunedin. very cheap and good fish, kumara fries, fries and whole fried mars/moro bars. a meal at fish&co. could buy all of that!

had a really strange dream last night. one part of it was me farting a lot but refusing to go the toilet to poo and a teacher/some lady in her 50s (i forgot what she was in my dream) scolded me for stinking up the place. another part was this holiday resort thing and there were two houses and we had to swim from place to place. two people died on the last day of the trip. they were both old (50s-60s) men. fathers/uncles? one was probably of drowning and the other heart attack in the water. VERY WEIRD. i want to buy a new dreamcatcher.

i haven't been so happy in such a long time (despite my non-existent hair omggg)!!! made chinleng wait forever in the morning (sorry!) and then we shopped! not a very extensive shopping trip but we managed to buy some stuff : ))) of course had food, then settled down at the new starbucks@wisma (i love it! i will hang out there every day if my school was still near town.) with the intention of doing work (which was the main purpose of meeting up) but ended up talking for a few hours. hahaha seriously what is new. ended up with a really bad thirst and sore throat after that. meishu (!!!) joined us and we made our way to this moroccan bar, marakesh (i think?), at clark quay. super super super fun and nice just chilling there with our drinks (i ordered a drink called absolute stress, haha quite appropriate right), a shisha pipe and hiphop music from outside followed by moroccan music because we wanted the full moroccan atmosphere. my virgin shisha experience! chinleng's too. we had strawberry flavour : ))) chin had to leave to buy a cake.. so we shisha-ed some more and ordered hummus (pronouced as homos, apparently), which was pita bread with chicken paste dip. damn yummylicious, especially cos i was pretty hungry. small serving though so i was still hungry after that. basically i wanted to record all these down because it was such a lovely day for me! pictures aren't up so here is a picture of a shisha pipe.


heehee if life could be like this all the time! okokok happy girl is going to sleep now and hopefully have some yummy dreams. i need a new dreamcatcher, i think my current one is not working anymore.

oh my goodness. i have neverrr complained about having my hair cut too short, usually i think that my haircut is alright or perhaps longer than i would have liked it to be, but this time it is different. THE HAIRDRESSER CHOPPED OFF HALF OF MY HAIR. i cannot believe this. i clearly stated that i "just wanted to cut the fringe" and perhaps "minimal trimming" and that i want to "keep this length" but noooo the hairdresser decides my hair is too THICK and LONG and cuts it all off?! i am never going to have enough hair to perm at this rate la KNN. my day was pretty good sans haircut. i felt happy enough because of wednesday afternoon to "dress" happily today. i carried my flower bag together with my usual flower file and my usual flower pencil case with a flower in my hair. sijia was great company after school too, she actually waited for me to cut my hair! aiyahhh i'm still in shock about my hair. so pissy.

some things i would like you to know
1. britney spears is pregnant again!!! how stupid is she?
2. tj netball is in top 4! so super proud of biyi : ))) all that effort paid off!
3. sajc beat acjc to go to rugby finals against rj
4. i hate my haircut so much
5. i don't know how to shut up!
6. so goodbye i am going to sleep with hopes that my hair will grow at least 3 inches overnight.

amazinggg i went to school twice in eleven days! from thursday to the next sunday. skipped physics test the following tuesday, supposed to do make-up tomorrow evening but nyehhh i am going to meet sijia! my fourth finger still hurts like shite after almost three weeks??? is it supposed to hurt/swell that long : ((( it's very fat and ugly and when someone proposes to me, the ring will never be able to fit : ((( so to whoever is planning to propose to me, buy a bracelet ok? i think my wrist isn't very big.

haha anyway today is quite a good day. the past few days weren't so good, even though i wanted to blog very sad and emo entries, i was so sad and emo that i didn't blog and just went to sleep. today was a short day and everything went ok.. i even managed to sleep through the entire chem lecture. after school was full of slackity stuff with netballers! especially caroline, farz and neh. wooooo i love them!!! super fun. talking to neh thirst me so much i drank about two and half bottles of water. but i am also very very very sad that our tennis boys didn't make it to top 4! i had very high hopes pinned on them!

ah anyway the weather is killing me la it is damn hot and humid. tap water is freaking hot! not even warm, it's hot! my lips are reallyyy dry! i'm so excited i shall buy new lip balm. i should've bought the burt's beeswax lip balm at the flea market! dayamn. woo look what i found. my favourite neoprint from the past! wow i was quite black huh.

rj dance night, amarante, was cute! loved the jazz costumes and the last segment which my lovely cat choreographed with another dancer. haha and the walk after the concert together with sijia and chinleng was freaking hilarious, i wanted to die of laughter!!!

met debby at killiney's for tea before going to a flea market at some warehouse. wah there was no aircon and it was really packed, so it was freaking hot. a lot of vintagey stuff and all that there but it was too hot and crowded for me to look at anything properly. it was quite an experience though, i haven't been to a flea market before. mi3 was sold out, so the last movie i've watched still stands at final destination 3. omg i'm a loser! haha loads of walking around and eating : ) i am really tired from all that but i must must must finish my charged particles tutorial tonight.

haha general elections are really alien to me. i will go eat my milk&berry honey stars!!! how cute is that!

i know i keep running away. from everything.. especially school. it's becoming a rare occurence when i go to school. gave myself an extended 5-day holiday because i didn't go last friday and this tuesday. even so, my skin still managed to flare up. i am probably not going again tomorrow. sometimes i have the energy to go through school, but i don't have the tutorials to go along. i know tomorrow is one of those days when i will totally abhor school and will probably want to cry about every period. man, i am sounding more and more like a basketcase.

i've decided that a >>>>>>> r. so much goddamn more.

i'm going to sleep now. the bed is always a nice place to be.

did a couple of tests today. shall post the colorgenics test results again. it's the third time i'm taking it.. i got that last paragraph before so i guess it really pertains to me. this thing has always been pretty accurate it's quite scary.

colorgenics test results

you feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. this is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. in this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

everything seems to be going against you this time. try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. nothing is going as you would plan. the situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. it would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

in spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are idealistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to turn to or rely on. your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

you feel that you must have co-operation from those close to you before the existing stressful situation can be improved. you feel that no one understands you and this lack of understanding and appreciation makes you feel completely isolated. you need that feeling of security and would like to get away from what you now consider depressing shackles. you have that need to re-establish your own individuality but your sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for you to let go - to open up, but they way you are feeling at this time makes your feel that 'enough is enough' and you are prepared to give in. this disturbs you as you feel that this attitude is an obvious sign of weakness - an attitude to be overcome and so in spite of this situation you feel that in order to assert your own individuality you need to continue to practice self-restraint.

you really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. your attitude to work and to life is that 'if it's not fun - then don't do it'. you want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

must put this down so i can read it from time to time. think it is really quite accurate for my position now.. hmm i am such a tv addict! i watched lots of tv including some freaky deaky korean horror show about dolls and brothers grimm which is fun to watch. i could just stay at home all days with my dogs and watch tv. but at least i got out today.. oh yeah i think i must totally be out on weekends if not i'll never get any work done. so if you need a studying partner, just holla. there's a chem test tomorrow morning.. think i will go for the test but not to school. i'm not strong enough to face school now. which means it will be a five-day weekend for me (from friday to tuesday). no school no 2.4km run no training nonono i am not going for any of those bye.