lazypau

basically i have been doing nothing while doing something these days. and school work is such a foreign concept, i am lost for every single damn subject. i didn't even know there was a chemistry test next week rarrr. skipped school yesterday.. it was also colosseum (sports day). well, my house (triton) won.. but whatever i just want my pompoms back. met some 410 girls at california pizza at forum! kind of like aneeta's birthday thing. it was comfy being with them again : ))) jazz concert with chin and sijia at night which was alright. i like jazz.

feel like watching many animated films now! like xiaoqian and howl's moving castle and spirited away. woo i watched xiaoqian a few times already, i lovelovelove it. i'm going to name my dog solid gold too! i forgot what it is in chinese.. qian jin? it's so cute la! there's a new member in the house.. ok but just a temporary one. my sister-in-law's friend's dog. it's a collie, it is sooo pretty! but it's a boy. it knows how to do a high-five!



supposed to see a doctor to try to get a permanent mc. so super lazy to see a doctor. anyway to those who want to know, i am taking my SATs in june at acjc.. i'm taking physics, chemistry and mathematics 2. wish me loads of luck! it was international ben&jerry's day on tuesday? my sis and i bought this pint of b&j's which the dave matthews band helped created!


it is vanilla ice cream with fudge brownies and raspberry swirls. surely i am going to buy more pints. want to get oatmeal raisin, fossil fuel and more phish food. i love ice-cream and it is never more appropriate than in weathers like these.. haha what a happy post bye!

saw this in azlyn's blog so i decided to do it since all my fingers are going to drop off (from slamming my fingers into hard balls, netballs, that is), so i am incapable of doing any written work.

my ex is older.
maybe i should chosen a different path.
i don't understand gravitational field and why people do what they do.
i lose my temper easily.
people say unimportant, insignificant shit.
love is purest unrequited.
somewhere, someone is taking a poo.
i will always try to be consistent and hardworking but fail miserably.
forever is only a concept.
i never want to lose my loved ones.
i think the current US president is quite annoying.
when i wake up in the morning i go right back to sleep.
my past has been quite interesting.
i get annoyed by toilets which are dirty or have no toilet paper or both.
parties are getting old and getting lousy.
kisses are the best when they are from someone who lubs you!
tomorrow i want to pon school.
i really want jc to be over and for me to get into a good uni.
i have low tolerance for incompetence.

i don't know why on earth i am so bloody tired even though i hardly played just now. and no, i don't mind not playing, it doesn't really matter to me. just that i have very lovely tanlines as usual. razorback tan, jersey tan, shoe tan, slipper tan, shorts tan, tape tan and knee guard tan. vair pretty. very sleepy. going to register for SATs online, neaten up my file and sleep. i think i always list what i want to do before i sign off because then i will feel safer. weird.

season is really a waste of my time, i cannot wait for it to be over. slacked this whole weekend away (what's new), doing the usual, sleeping, eating, watching tv and talking. my room is really messy again. shall clean it up soon. my aircon was seriously raining two nights before, but i slept really soundly so i didn't notice anything until my dad came in in the morning and exclaimed that my entire floor was wet and the water even got outside my room. but now it's ok.. temperamental.

anyway i was researching a little on rheumatism, and the site says i "should avoid all meat and fish; white bread, sugar, and refined cereals; rich, indigestible and highly-seasoned foods; tea and coffee; alcohol; sauces, pickles, and condiments". this is also why i really don't like being in the rain because i will feel pain. maybe it's because of rheumatism, that's why i get injuries very easily : (

haha sigh i love saturdays.. laughed quite a bit. hahaha what with chinleng's comments and mayb's highness. and our lovely sijia the mugger decided to STAY AT HOME. it's ok, we still love you and all your nerdiness.

math test tomorrow and econs test on tuesday. exciting!!! knn i haven't studied yet i need to pack my bag and sleep already la.

why do we try so hard to be so strong? is it so taboo to be weak? what's wrong with being weak and vulnerable and raw and exposed? sometimes it's bravery to not be strong.

my current book. it's overdue already!!! got to pay library fines. i love the cover.. i found another cover of it but i think i still like the top one more. i love such books. i want to watch the film!

people should understand that when i go to school, i really don't seek to impress anyone. especially not image-wise. the only reaons why i tie my hair in various ways (french braid, pony tail, anyhow bun, neat bun, using many-rubber-bands) are 1) getting my hair out of my face; 2) relieving my headache; 3) make my hair lighter because it weighs my head down; 4) to train without worrying about my hair; 5) air my scalp; 6) laziness. people kept going on about my hair today it gets quite annoying! i don't need any comments.. good or bad. also, my form teacher thinks that my hair is perpetually messy?! and i was already trying to be neat! he should see my hair when i try to be messy. speaking of which, i'm vairrr excited to grow my hair super long to curl it!!! wow i am so intellectual i just typed a whole paragraph about my own freaking hair.

i would love for this blog to be just in my mind but be real so i could refer to it whenever i want to, fuss-free, and i would be away away away from the judgemental eyes of people. then i can say things like i am really intrigued by anorexia, crime, smoking, alcohol, pills and pain.

one thing that amazes me (but in a bad way) is how people can purposely skip meals to diet even though they have freaking gastric. it's just stupid. haha but i am stupid too. i don't wear knee guards or tape my knees even though they hurt especially my right one because i don't like the idea of having such a bad tanline. today i injured my right ankle but it's not too bad. my fourth finger has been in pain since last week!!!

so late already!!! i am supposed to sleep early! no time to do chem or math! freak i really have to start sleeping earlier. ok before i go, a picture of jewel i wanted to post quite some time ago.


i just wanted to say that she would have gotten booked by prefects if she was in rgs hahaha.

okokok i wish everyone will leave me and my pimples alone, they will GO AWAY if i had a one-month vacation in hawaii. i look in the mirror so i knowwwww ok?! anyway the people at school have it worse haha cos they have to look at me with all my hair pulled back and a makeup-less face, so i show everybahdee in school my big face and my eyebags and my pimps. lovely.

freak!!! i just freaking realised that i have NO TIME to take SAT 1 and 2 by this year so i will have to take 2 in june! i am soooo screwed! NABEI why aren't there more test dates?! stresssssssssssss. ok i will register by this week and maybe i will take THREE subject tests omg.

and screw that, i don't even know why i bothered in the first place.

very hungry and i am craving for the waffles again! those kaya/redbean/peanutbutter/etc things. i was totally craving for some on sunday and i got one slapped with lots of peanut butter and chocolate. AND TODAY I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED DINOSAUR GUMMIES. they are quite big for gummies and they came individually and in colours of blue+green or red+yellow and they are smooth (no sugar or anything) and soft and they are in the shape of dinosaurs. who remembers them?! i will marry the person who will find me some now!!! i think they are out of production so probably have to buy a factory and manufacture some new ones. i love the gummies!!!

this weekend has been so lovely and FOOD-y! friday was at lala's house with many people, lots of food and fun games! xue, angela, joyce, minjen, kexian, tohqi and many friends of angela's and her friends' friends; mac'n'cheese, stew, hotdogs, rendang, beehoon, potato salad, handrolls, almond beancurd and longan, apple crumble and vanilla ice-cream; pictionary, bingo. plus lots of talk and catching up <333 got caught in the rain TWICE that day with xue. saturday was more slacking and talking with the satc girls and we took neoprints! haha so old school and i look like fug in all of them. today, as usual, was tv day with my indispensable three hours of csi with their many one-liners. but i am muchly sad! i didn't get any easter eggs this year! i want chocolate ones with caramel inside because they are the yummiest! i am really good at staying off chocolates : ))) i bought two bars of chocolate (kinder bueno and boost) but i didn't touch them.. so good!

wah.. school is such a bubble-burster.

i keep telling myself that regret is empty and useless but..

haha i always end on very sad notes but this time i shan't because i am actually quite happy. HAPPY THOUGHTS!!! flower power and electric magic and hairy fairies!!!

i have been a good girl.. i haven't eaten chocolate for maybe two weeks or more? i cannot remember. but i still ate some ice-cream and donuts and lots of sugary stuff like mentos and chewing gum etc etc etc. i think i'm just sugar-dependent.

hummm i need a pumice stone, my feet are starting to looked wrecked. ooh i am so happy the weekend is here and tomorrow will be another lovely day! i can just feel it! lunch with xue and bunch at angela's (minus rau who's "dumping us for her man", as quoted by lala)!

sometimes boys should be eradicated.

natural yogurt is an acquired taste.

it was nice and comfy hanging out with debby, chah and bee.

maybe why i am always sick and tired and pimply and ugly is because i tend to sleep late every night. to me, sleeping at 1a.m. on a school night is perfectly normal and it's not because i'm doing my homework or studying but because i am online or watching tv or reading. i will try to sleep before 11.30p.m. from now onwards. i will start today once i finish blogging and checking ivle because i have been selected for the econs quiz argh! first it was the debate and now the quiz. anyway i didn't manage to do the debate because i was sick on that day and i didn't know the debate was scheduled to be on that day so alexis took my place, which is all good. but i really want to read ALL of my celebrity gossip sites because there are so many things to know! all the celebrity babies are popping out now! gwyneth paltrow, angelina jolie etc. i should join the papparazi.

i am in love with jason mraz.. i can play his songs on repeat all day. i'm learning to sing "i'm yours" and "who needs shelter" has been stuck in my mind for days!!!

training hasn't been easy, not because of training itself, but kind of annoyed with some people or just some stuff. think i've been rather snappish and maybe bossy. think i'm like that with classmates too. must learn to be more tolerant. i know i'm always hurrying people. such a meishu thing to do : )))

tomorrow would be a wonderful day if not for school! i hate all the SPA skill A in the world. i can't think or write fast enough. and i just sprained my fourth finger. it hurts and it's swollen and ugly. anyway it will be a wonderful day because wow i'm finally going out tomorrow i have been hermitting for over ten freaking days can you believe it! bloody record-breaking!

nothing nothing nothing ever goes my way anymore.

haha it is impossible to even think about school work when the living room (and the entire house) is BLASTING with music and sound from whatever show my siblings are watching, courtesy of the sound system and the volume my brother turns the damn thing to. freaking like cinema digital surround sound man. maybeeeee i will do a couple of tutorial questions later, very inspired by gwen's and lynette's grades.

watched five episodes of desperate housewives just now.. that's about four hours! anyway susan is so bloody annoying, i really don't see why anyone would like her. i hate that george guy too and i am so happy bree finally sees that he is really a nutcase and a loser. lovely way to spend my afternoon except i didn't have much choices in terms of snacks.

going to complain and whine again. am constantly sick sick and sick. nausea, headaches, backaches, toothaches. muscle aches too but i don't really mind that. need a doctor, dermatologist, dentist. need a haircut. need to rest.

give up give up give up.

all of you don't understand, even if you think you do.

two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry i could not travel both

too stupid and too late.

i want to be fair and pimpleless. rosy cheeks as a bonus.

i didn't do any school-related stuff again after training (which was fitness and conditioning, a long talk by miss choi and a talk amongst ourselves). also, i reached school at ten in the morning. the OM is bitchier than normal, perhaps because the principal and vice principal are away. he is really more of a discipline master than an operations manager, really.

i wished it would rain all day and i could stay in bed and sleep and pretend that i don't exist.

question: what do you do when you find a book boring but you've already read it halfway? do you continue or do you stop? for the record, this is not in any way metaphorical.

there's this constant mucus-y feeling at the back of my nose/mouth but my nose isn't blocked and there isn't a substantial amont of phlegm either. this has been going on for several days and it is vair annoying. it also makes my stomach feel empty and wonky, so i eat even more.

have you tried playing spider solitaire with four different suits? it's damn difficult argh.

sometimes when i think about it, the only reason why i do it is for you.

today was debby's eighteenth birthday party! the theme was green/pink! wore my lime green top even though it makes me look even more pregnant. someone gave her a watermelon, very creative. had a lovely chill out time with friends with yummy food and cake. even ramona talked to me! sorry for being tired/stoned/cold towards the end because was just feeling drained. love spending time with darlings!