lazypau

anyway i have been made to drop chem s, which has been the main cause for my misery nowadays. really knn. i have complained to a few people already so i am not going to rant here because it will just multiply my misery and i will feel blah all over again. now i am trying to decide if i should also drop math s and study for SAT 1 and 2 instead. anyway it is really very knn i hate the school a lot right now and i haven't told my parents yet. sorry to chinleng and sijia, that i cannot be in the cool 2 s papers club anymore. it will feel very weird to go to training on time on a thursday instead of trudging to the classroom or lt. if i cannot get into team then there is no point living and i will bloody kill myself already.

mmm anyway i've been contemplating church again. i was kind of living the double life and i was really sick of it so i chose the "sinful" way in the end. most church people don't know my doings out of church and the only sign of such doings is probably my tongue stud. friendster is quite dangerous but maybe it can help break the news gently to people.

this world is very hard to live in.