lazypau

2007-03-26T03:38:00.000+08:00

hello long neglected blog. anyway i'm trying to get rid of some clothes which are just taking up space in my very small room.

1. Victoria's Secret Crochet Top

front view (the spot is just some thread from my other shirt)

back view

brown
size M (fits UK 10-12, at least)
has elastic support
width: 15 inches
length: 24 inches
very comfortable material (95% cotton, 5% spandex)
only worn once
original price: SGD45
selling for: SGD28

2. Zara Toga

pale green
size M (should fit UK 8-10?)
92% polyamide, 8% spandex
width: 13 inches
length: 18 inches
good condition
original price: ?
selling for: SGD8

3. Stussy Top

orange/vermilion
size M (fits UK 8-12?)
100% polyester
ruched at the sides, bottom
small silver embroidered STUSSY at the back (top)
width: 16.5 inches
length: 23 inches
good condition
original price: about SGD45?
selling for: SGD14

4. Mango Top

orange with black, pink and very pale green stripes
size L (fits many, as can be worn as dress for the more petite girls)
satiny material
elastic band
width: 20 inches
length (adjustable, due to adjustable shoulder straps): about 30 inches (short side), 35 inches (long side)
good condition
original price: ?
selling for: SGD25

5. Dorothy Perkins Spaghetti Strap

white
UK size 10
100% cotton
width: 15 inches
length: 19.5 inches
never worn before
original price: err ?
selling for: SGD5

6. Armani Exchange Tank Top

pink/white/pale yellow/black
size XS
95% cotton, 5% spandex
width: 12.5 inches
length: 18 inches
good condition
original price: ?
selling for: SGD15

being a nice person, all prices are negotiable. please email to exquisite.tenderness@gmail.com if interested.. also please promote this because i am a very sad person who needs some extra cash to support her drug habit (i am just joking, i only need to support my eating). lengths of the tops are measured from the shoulder line to the bottom. they are very good buys please please buy haha. i either can't fit into them properly or just NOT MY COLOUR such as orange. orange isn't my colour. but if orange is your colour, you can get not one, but two tops! wah so cool right. also the colours aren't depicted that accurately.. mostly nicer than they are in the pictures!

i have some bags to sell also.. err and i am sure some other clothes but i am so lazy right now so this will do. i also threw/gave away many stuff when i moved.

also i am now offering food services (normal dishes as in savoury food, desserts and sweet munchies), so you can also email me if you have any requests.. really good. i am a better cook than i look, i promise you. i can make things like cheesecake, cakes, brownies (vegan or otherwise), cookies, muffins, cupcakes, pizza, lasagne etc etc etc. also very good if you are vegetarian cos i am the best at vegetarian and actually i am not gonna offer non-vegetarian food. i also have vegan options, so if you are vegan you can order also.

well it is 4a.m. in the morning so bye!

2007-01-02T13:39:00.000+08:00

happy 2007! lazypau i still love you!

2006 has not been the most eventful year of my life, but it certainly wasn't that boring (unless you count school.. and school. well even then i am sure my school life has been more exciting than fellow schoolmates because of my great attendance and occasional call-ups to meet with teachers or principals). i've studied more in the past 2 years than i have in the first 16 years of my life.. which is truly saying something. school sucked really badly for me.. so i am vairrr happy i don't have to go back again. except to do admin stuff and collect results. school was.. fighting with authorities, netball, s papers, boring lessons and ponning school. and of course there were prelims and A levels.

i let myself loose a little more as compared to j1 too. not too much drama.. pretty much same ol' same ol' actually. maybe until recently.. anyway i'm too tired to continue this. feel like sleeping some more even though i slept for a decent amount of hours already.

2006-10-22T19:48:00.000+08:00

ok sorry lazypau!!! you have been greatly neglected. anyway my life is a huge fucking bore now. and i am not even studying very conscientiously which makes things even more pointless. THEY ARE GONNA COME SOON. which also means a levels are going to end soon. and strangely even with math s, i end earlier than 90% of my close friends ha ha see la why try and act cool and take literature when you can be cool like me and take math s (which i will get ungraded for btw).

anyway i have kind of gotten rid of my old addiction and now i have a new one. yah i am talking in codes because i like it.

anyway sundays are such lazy hazy days.. went to church, had lontong with pearl (no prata today! i hope we can have some next week), and shopping with my mum. as usual, most of our buys were food hurhur. we got some mooncake bargains! my dad was tres happy about the mooncakes. i ate half of one today.

OK MY B-GRADE CHINESE HORROR SHOW HAS STARTED. it's gonna get me an A in chemistry so yah i have to watch it bye.

2006-09-18T20:36:00.000+08:00

have been thinking of going vegan lately, though it will be hard. won't immediately eliminate ALL non-vegan things but i will try slowly. even wool and leather (unless it's that pair of chanel boots from the devil wears prada haha). going to search for this book skinny bitch by kim barnouin. apparently it's quite good, it "espouses a healthful lifestyle that eliminates meat and dairy foods, promotes whole grains, fruits, and vegetables, and encourages women to get excited about feeling clean and pure and energised". also i found some vegetarian support sites which are good too. my reason for going vegetarian is because i believe that is the way nature meant us to be, and also because of the deplorable state of animals. actually i wanted to go to sleep now because i am very tired but i will do a short summary on why you should go vegetarian. and for those who didn't know, i didn't each vegetables at all until one or two years ago.

reasons to go vegetarian!

1. health. a good vegetarian diet can promote longevity, vitality, improved immuned systom, weight control and a healthier heart, liver and kidneys. for example, atherosclerosis (hardening/narrowing of arteries), which contributes to heart disease and stroke, is a gradual build-up of plaque caused by a diet high in saturated fat and high cholesterol to which meat consumption is a major factor in.

2. nutrition.
plant foods
- contrain absolutely zero cholesterol
- generally low in total fat content
- low in saturated fats (except coconut and palm oil)
- only source of fibre (important to colon health)
- appeal to our taste buds (haha this is subjective but it is rather cleansing for the palate)
- full of vitality and important enzymes, especially when raw
- contain antioxidants, which protect against free radical damage and thus chronic diseases such as cancer, heart and liver disease
- only source of phytochemicals, such as soy isoflavones and carotenoids, which protect against aging and various diseases
- best food source of folates, which are important in protecting against birth defects and heart disease
animal foods
- contain absolutely zero fibre
- generally high in cholesterol, even lean meat
- generally high in fats, especially saturated fats
- mostly unpalatable without seasoning or cooking
- contain carcinogenic (cancer-causing) compounds, especially when grilled or cooked at high temperatures
- account for >95% of food poisoning cases
- may contain toxins from the foods fed to animals, including antibiotics given to animals and the toxins animals secrete during imprisonment, mistreatment and slaughter

3. our body. are humans herbivores? while this is a complex issue, there is some hard evidence. our nails are flattened, and unlike carnivores, we don't have sharp pointed teeth. both humans and herbivores have carbohydrate digestive enzymes in our saliva, while carnivores and omnivores do not. carnivores and omnivores have a colon that is short, simple and smooth, and have stomach acidity less than pH 1 with food in stomach; humans, like herbivores, have a very long, complex and sacculated colon and stomach acidity is around pH 4-5 with food in stomach. our long intestine length is designed for a high fibre diet. meat does not digest well in such an environment and often turns toxic, contributing to colon cancer. carnivores enjoy the act of savaging and the scent of blood; humans usually cannot tolerate sounds and cries of animals being killed and sight of bloody is usually disturbing more than inducing hunger.

4. compassion. needless to say, today's animal farming is cruel. to enable farm animals to survive harsh conditions and to promote unnatural growth, they are often injected with antibiotics and growth hormones. chicks are debeaked, pigs castrated, teeth cut, tails docked and all these without anaesthesia. i will elaborate on this another time because i feel so much for this! it has been one concern of mine since i was nine.

5. environment. it takes 10 kg of grain to produce 1 kg of beef. more than 80% of corn and 95% of oats grow in the US are fed to livestock, not hungry people. it takes more than 25000 litres of water to produce 1 kg of beef. it takes 200 times more water to make a pound of beef than a pound of potatoes. huge amounts of forest have been cleared to grow crops to feed livestock. the meat industry is the single greatest polluter or our waters. in the US, animals raised for food produce many times more excrement than the ENTIRE human population. livestock agriculture accounts for almost 40% of nitrogen and 35% of phosphorous that pollute US waters. methane-emitting livestock contribute significantly to the greenhouse effect, which leads to global warming. 78 calories worth of fossil fuel is needed to get 1 calorie of protein from beef, while it takes only 2 calories of fossil fuel to get 1 calorie of protein from plant food. large amounts of energy are wasted on running equipment, shipping animals to slaughter and so on.

6. a vegetarian diet can meet ALL our nutritional needs. contrary to popular misconception, it is virtually impossible to be deficient in protein on a vegetarian diet as good sources of protein include soya products, legumes, whole grains, vegetables, nuts and seeds. also meat-eaters who overeat protein have a high chance of developing kidney problems, and also animal protein increases calcium losses. most meat-eaters who try to build up on calcium will find themselves in a rut as protein blocks the absorption of calcium. calcium deficiency leads to brittle bones and osteoporosis.

2006-09-15T23:00:00.000+08:00

today i went to the supermarket with the sole purpose of buying tea. i spent about twenty bucks and came home for an hour plus before i realised i didn't buy my tea! wtfishcake haha. anyway elephants are speshul creatures. i saw the news yesterday about this elephant which can speak eight korean words! so clever. they are also the only mammals that cannot jump and besides humans, they are the only animals which can be taught to stand on their heads.

ok updating for updates sake. i'll put a picture i like.

also.. don't drink diet coke or pop. firstly aspartame (artificial) sweetener is bad for you and diet stuff is so acidic that if you drink one serving of it, you need 37 cups of water to balance your pH.

ok super tired bye world.

2006-09-02T00:08:00.000+08:00

hohum. novelty is still taking me away from this place. but i will not bear to live this blog alone for now. so a little insight into life nowadays: study, eat, sleep, slack. today was very tiring. i slept super little and woke up damn early and was very unproductive and had to go for naomin' surprise birthday party. thankfully it went well and was quite fun. i stuffed myself with food but what else is new. to everyone taking As.. continue surfing the net hahaha because i need other people to be slacker than me. ok no, please study. but seriously i am screwed for prelims and i don't know what to do. i will rest well tonight so that tomorrow will be a better day.

2006-08-27T22:37:00.000+08:00

hello i've been neglecting this place because i started a livejournal the other day and it's here. i'll continue posting here but for now there is the novelty of posting of livejournal because of the mood icons! : ))) school's out and studying's in, so i'd better not spend too much time online, like i did last night. missed church again because i overslept, and somehow no one woke me up. that's about it for my life right now. oh and MINJEN left for nyu already!!! : ((( soon lala and kx will leave too and all these is making me doubly, triply sad. sighhh please take care ladies.

2006-08-22T01:16:00.000+08:00

feeling whiny griny about school again but it is just FOUR MORE DAYS. i cannot wait, honestly. but i have a nagging feeling that we are supposed to go back to school after prelims. bummer. today my ct kind of blew up, at the class, not at me alone. but i know he has already had enough of me. i empathise with him, but at this point in time, i am a selfish person (in school) so i cannot be bothered. sometimes i might appear as being disrespectful to school, and the whole concept itself. i don't believe that the sanctity(ish) of school exists in this (singaporean) society. i just feel like school is disrespectful/unfair to us sometimes, and they don't practise what they preach, and that, my friends, is called hypocrisy. anyway, i feel that school is supposed to be an institution for learning, so it is pointless to go when you don't learn anything, and suffer a big opportunity cost (of learning more out of school) when you do go. just like how i could have done something during the double gp period today instead of finding the perfect position to sleep while still looking like i was interested and copying down stuff. i woke up after an hour plus because it was too hot.

anyway, that was very disgusting because it was all about school. met up with my loves today (jen, xue, dawn, joyce, qi, kx, lala, joan) for some sushi again, followed by starbucks with cranium! heh heh of course we didn't fail to embarrass ourselves. super fun la! heehee we should do this moreee. super saddd because jen, lala and kx will be going overseas soon : ( seriously, i never feel like time spent with my loves is everrr wasted. muamua*

i know what will make me even happier! i want a couple of pairs of keds! and some other pairs of shoes. and new jeans and dresses hahahaha etc etc omg so materialistic. aiyah no it's not la because i am not obsessed. i'm trying to be super duper thrifty but it's not working, mainly because of starbucks/coffeebean, food and erm yeah that's it.

i must run along and read some biochemistry now so i don't have to hand in a blank test paper tomorrow although all i want to do is sleep and dream of japanese chocolate pancakes and gelare waffles.. AND TOMORROW IS TUESDAY!!! waffles day. but i've already promised myself that i am going to stay back in school to study. so.. yes bye.

2006-08-19T01:42:00.000+08:00

having some serious food cravings lately. haha as usual, actually. i like soya bean food.

i'm really good at procrastination. was supposed to meet my mentor at the start of this year, and the final session form has been given to us and i haven't even met her once.

i think dressing up is an artform. i wished i had the resources (time and neverending supply of clothes and accessories) to do that. my current staples are big tshirts and shorts. nice, i know.

the main purpose of this post: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE don't let it rain tomorrow. i hope the weather forecast of having 50% chance precipitation and chances of thunderstorms be WRONG.

yayyy happy. night.

2006-08-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

hi i woke up tremendously ugly today thanks to a swollen eye. but i still dragged myself out of bed and to school where i did some survey on school which is basically me saying that school sucks. then i decided that my eyelid was way too heavy to be open the entire day so i trooped down to my favourite (not) polyclinic which was as usual, jam-packed with people. wow anyway it rained super heavily in pasir ris just now i swear i thought the world was going to end. quite scary. my nice daddy picked me up from eunos mrt station. i'm happy to be home this rainy afternoon although the rain has kind of died down already : ( except that i can't seem to hear the indiepop radio station.

haha i have foccacia bread calling my name!!! and the doctor gave me a two-day mc hahahaha.

2006-08-12T01:02:00.000+08:00

blogging in photos because i have wasted way too many hours online! and i have done zero homework the teachers have set for us. smelling of strawberries and eating blueberries : )

a couple of shots from the japanese band concert which so good that they had six encores. the soloists are all super good too.

saxophone

song

one of the guys, who looked the manliest, teared while singing the song! so super sad/cute. anyway the concert had dances incorporated into some of the pieces, tres amusant.

my parkway study partner

and a rare narcissistic-ish shot of me while i was waiting for chahsie at holland v.

at our no-longer-secret hangout : (

didn't really feel like national day because besides my red nails, i didn't really.. feel/do anything. not particularly patriotic. anyways it was also bae's birthday and i went along with fairuz on thursday for his dinner. he sang on stage twice, at fish&co. and at indochine.

flah-bee

i miss my dogs. i miss having dogs. these two skinny (though they don't look so in the picture) rascals stay with my brother now. a family friend wanted to give the super pretty lassie to us but my sister doesn't want a dog. omggg suffering from superduper dog-withdrawal : (((

let sleeping dogs lie

went to rj library today. i have this hypothesis that all school librarians are freaking cranky and make more noise than everyone else in the library combined. also, some may think i have this undying desire to be a student of rj, the honest honest honest truth is that i don't. i just don't mind making the trips down there to be with my friends or study (no ulterior motives ok!!!). i'm craving for youtiao and soya beancurd NOW.

2006-08-07T23:33:00.000+08:00

saturday was nice. usual waste-time talent management session followed by subway lunch (egg mayo) with fellow tm-ers, abigail and yiling. went home and met up with my favouritest chah at holland v to study! it was pretty productive-ish but i need to increase my efficiency. dinner was with her dad at original sin! it's like, a vegetarian's dream place : ))) so cute they have a dish called magic mushrooms.

yesterday after i got out of my dad's car, i tripped over a curb and fell and scraped my knee. my knees are scar-ridden. didn't feel like playing tennis after that, so i pangseh-ed naomin and edmoon the second day in a row.

omggg guess what! grace stays RIGHT beside me. how strange is that!!! i discovered that when we bumped into each other on the street just now. so very interesting.

apparently there are only five weeks to prelims. as usual, and totally deja vu-ish, it's surreal how i don't feel scared at all. prelims may not matter to some people, but it's actually quite important because i'm applying for my universities using prelim results and projected grades. another challenge i'm facing is what course should i take..? it seems like i was brought up with no concrete purpose in life except to slack. i've about three main majors in mind, but there are just too many things to consider. tomorrow's an early day. it's also an opportunity to wear non-uniform clothes to schoo (red/white or ethnic costumes)l. but since there are too many damn rules to conform to, we are all wearing our school uniform. school pride huh. ooh i want to get a kebaya!

2006-08-05T01:09:00.000+08:00

i think it's some sort of sickness when i see the two exact same things but in my heart i'd rather buy the more expensive one. i have to be cured.

also i hate it that everyone else insists on catching up on trends. actually, i don't mind unless i liked it first HAHA. like patent-y stuff which i've been liking since i read this particular book when i was in primary school. damn all you patent shoe-wearers, those were in my head first.

karaoke with classmates (shuli, yiling, abigail and alden) after school. i must 1. expand my pathetic database of chinese songs, 2. perfect the songs i know and stop singing blahblahs to words i cannot recognise and 3. not gorge on junk like potato chips and mixed peanuts.

sleepy. night.

2006-08-04T00:19:00.000+08:00

there's a cat and her litter of kittens on my lane. i think one of their favourite hangouts, is my roof. it is rather disturbing to hear pitter pattering of claw-things on the roof plus lots of unsynchronised meowing. it has been going on for quite a while. anyway, i was happily doing nothing in my room when i heard a particular meow getting real loud. i went to my balcony to check, lo and behold! a kitten. i engaged the help of my domestic fat cat, garfield (aka the sister). well i managed to get the fat cat to take the kitten downstairs, but not before it (the kitten, not my sister) left a brown souvenir on the floor (which shall be removed promptly by someone, i hope). we tried to stuff it through our gates (we were too lazy to get our keys to open it) but it kind of crawled into some hole and hibernated there. took us quite a while to grab it out and put it out the gate. now it's just hibernating outside my gate. not the main gate. all this while, it appears to show no sign of intelligence, and doesn't respond to sounds or movements. let's hope for the best for this kitty.

anyway wow the hikes in cab fares is seriously bloodsucking. i will never take a cab during peak hours again. twice is enough. fucking ripoffs. i must either 1. learn to walk/run very fast at speeds of 80km/h without sweating, 2. get a driving license and a car, or 3. hibernate at home and not go anywhere. yeah alright i should get to sleep now. have been getting minimal sleep lately due to all my tv/show-watching.

2006-08-04T00:17:00.000+08:00

i wish i knew how to quit you.

2006-08-02T00:24:00.000+08:00

hi i smell of oatmeal cookie now. thank you debby! love the body wash.

anyway wow in the previous post i was still ranting about hating talks to teachers etc and i had to see the vice-principal again. so i have to try to go to school everyday now. of course, i've been informed that going to school is a "requirement". requirement for what, specifically? that aside.. besides glueing myself onto the OC, i've been downloading old episodes of laguna beach and watching them! and then i realised i actually remember most of the things in it. and i love trey. i want to marry a trey. i should go stalk him in bard college.

just thought i should update this blog thing. though i have nothing much to say at the moment.. oh i watched lake house with the bulldog dolls (apparently they are horrified that i refer to them as that, but we cannot deny the truth), it was quite nice but the ending a tad abrupt.

actually, i just remembered what i wanted to blog. I MISS HAVING DOGS AROUND. bingo has been staying with gramma for a few years (wow he's about 12 and a half years old already), ginger and snowy is now living with my brother.. and my stupid sister doesn't want to adopt lassie whom a family friend wanted to give to us. he's super pretty and cute and quiet and adorable! he stayed at our house a couple of times before. sigh it's just nice to have your doggies pouncing on you when you get home because they are SO excited to see you just because you're you. and they watch television with you.. and nap with you and eat with you and try to steal your food even though they might not even eat it after you give in to them. i need a dog : ( and minus my sister because she only like things that are similar to her, they must be fat and lazy. like garfield and bingo haha.

i should go off now and urghhh do some work. but it's so late so i'll probably just sleep. i still smell like oatmeal cookie : )))

2006-07-24T23:43:00.000+08:00

man, i really hate talks with teachers (except with like julie koh and miss ko etc haha). nowadays i'm trying to be really good so i keep my words to a minimum because i have experienced what great damage my words can do. crap i ran out of bread and cheese so i might have to go sandwichless tomorrow :( hohum it's only a monday night and already i can't wait for friday/saturday to come. school, ironically, is depriving me of time to study.

sigh i am a page full of regrets.

please take a look here at beautifultrashh for some nice accessories! handmade by cat, and all lovely. hmmm and i think my next fervently-downloaded series after the OC will be life as we know it. it's actually based on the novel "doing it" which cover i posted a few months back. ok going to do some math, you know, some newton-raphson crap, and then i will sleep so i can wake up to grab some bagels/muffins and a cuppa from starbucks because i loooovvveee starbucks. recently having coke light and root beer light (i like the taste, seriously) cravings. i know they are bad for my teeth, i can practically feel the corrosion going on.

2006-07-24T01:49:00.000+08:00

parkway is my new hangout.. i kind of like it because i somehow everyone else seems a little bit more foreign to me and there is starbucks!!! ok and coffee bean. too bad starbucks is outdoors so studying there is ruled out. coffee is damn expensive too i realised i spent all my freaking money on coffee or chai or whatever drinks.

school has been more more more than a few hundred piles of shit. my mum got called into meeting my form teacher (only those who did badly for mid-years had to have their parents meet the teachers, and if they got straight Fs, then to the principal), mainly because i always skip school. well i must say i have a pretty nice form teacher although, in his words, i seem to "worry him endlessly" as i "always look like i am going to die/faint" in school. i probably have the i-would-rather-be-anywhere-else-in-the-world-than-here face when i am in school. how unfortunate that it is true i feel that way. can feel that i'm not the only one who is starting to detest school increasingly.. sometimes i also feel like i piss people off when i have this fuckshit attitude. if it annoys you, pleaseee tell me (really). i'd just like people to know it's not the people in school that i can't stand but just the damn school itself. seriously i think if i had sat through the principal's talk to our class on thursday i would have probably blown up at her and tried to stab her with my pen. guess it was a good thing i didn't go. oh i digressed. i was supposed to go along for the PTM but of course i chose to sleep. really sorry for pissing my CT off (not like he'll read this). my purpose is never to irritate teachers (except tazzo). it just happens as a side effect of whatever i'm doing. and a while before this i got called into the VP's office for reasons unfathomable. in short, i can't wait for fucking jc to be fucking over.

hum, anyway i guess the PTM session was good for me since my mum said i can have anything i want as long i "study hard". i hate it when my mum cares about what other people think. she said i should "prove to other people". well, guess what? i don't give half a shit about "other people". i have nothing to prove to people. i don't even need to prove to myself. the only damn things worth proving are probably math equations and physics formulae. so i told her that it's her problem if she cares about what other people think because i don't. another thing is i hate it when parents try and compare their children with other people. thankfully this has only happened a couple of times for me. because i tactfully (not) pointed out that they are also not as wonderful as _____(insert random name)'s parents. mmm i do make a lot of sense sometimes i should become a philosopher.

well actually i'm not as full of angst as i sound. watching guess guess guess on sunday nights simply lift my mood because jacky wu is just simply full of shit!!! actually adrian reminds me of him. they could compete for being the most goddamn irritating shit in the world hahahahaha.

yeah ok seven more hours till school starts and since i bet with darren on the physics mcq, i can't get starbucks coffee tomorrow!!! damn it. i'll make a trip before school on tuesday (if i even decide to go). night larlings.

2006-07-20T13:14:00.000+08:00

hellooo many things have happened in the long time i was away. for one, i moved into my new house.. and for some reason the internet had some problems (and i am still in the midst of fixing everything properly) so i'll blog first before i get down to all the cabling. let's start with something that i don't care about, i.e. school (which explains why i am not in school today, or last wednesday or last monday or last last friday). for those who are actually interested, i got CDEO for mid-years.

next, onslaught of birthdays!!! minjen turned nineteen on 14 july : ))) kexian bought taboo from toys'r'us and we had so much fun and made so much noise playing taboo in coffee bean!

the most proper shot of birthday girl, minjen (far left)

pigtails / xueying

taboo at coffeebean@paragon!

minjen+joan+kx+rau vs xueying+joyce+me (winners!)

dinner@modesto's

happy 18th birthday to rueben on that day as well! : )))

then.. on the 15th, i turned eighteen!!! so remember i was saying i was too blah to do anything? i watched tv in the day and my lovelylovelylovely charmie organised a dinner for me!!! thanks to everyone who went and everyone who wished me : ) i will thank all of you name by name here since many of you complained that i didn't reply your message etc. thank you for coming: (in no order of importance except charmie) CHAH, zan+joel, samz+hann, chelle, debby, spinkie, bee, chinleng, sijia, mayb, xueying, minjen, kexian, eunice, christina, stef, clarissa, daphne, naomin, atiqah, nat, rueben, ruiwen, yuanloong and bobby. thank you for remembering: abigail, neh, jinli, edmoon, alden, chan leong, zach, pamela, glen, pearl, chifung, hendrick, aneeta, gladys, umay, dennis, debbie, just, shuli, brandon ng, aileen, dona, giff, liane,daryl, liping, rachel, shengxiang, andrew, adeline and farz! : )))

BLACK&WHITE@OLIO : ))) except me because birthday girls are always speshul. and my lovely planner/moroccan boyfriend/waiter in her blue vest.

i love my spazzoids

boys and bee

spunkie, spookie and spinkie

fairies and stef plus mylittleponyballoon

1: my present from zan
2: my look of disbelief when told then zan made it herself
3: reading the card to reconfirm the shocking truth
4: aww love the cushy and newfound respect for the retard!

bee and debbee!

banglas: naomin (my other buoy in mj) and nat

xue and eunice

me and mouse

me / chris / kx / minjen / xue

strawberry cheesecake but no eighteen candles

410 power!

205-ers

BIG love from my planner!!!

slowcoach joan who came at midnight (seriously)

azad's hat

OK i am missing photos of the bulldog dolls so remember to send me the pictures so your presence is acknowledged!!! anyway i had a blasty blast, thank you again! my friends rock. thank you for all the presents and stuff and if i go on anymore i will get all mushyyy so muamuamua xoxoxoxoxoxo.

met eunice for dinner after school on tuesday! she ordered meatball spaghetti but guess what.. she doesn't eat meatballs! she also eats fishball noodle sans fishballs, bachor mee sans bachor.. almost like my sister! anyway we discovered a new place newyorknewyork! the hot chocolate there is yummoes. even though we are not neighbours anymore, we must still hang out ok!

ok time for lunch and then fixing the internet thing. because starhub is a damn ripoff!!! haha i would complain about it but in a DAYAMN good mood after posting all these happy pictures! mua*

2006-07-08T01:51:00.000+08:00

NABEI everything is driving me up the wall. i can't believe i still haven't done anything to hurt myself or anyone else amidst the fuck-upedness of everything. nothing seems to be going smoothly, much less my way. plus i have been craving for starbucks for forever but i haven't gotten a chance to grab a cuppa.

right now, my misfortunes definitely outweight my blessings. i had quite yummy vegetarian kway chap today, and i watched six episodes of OC because i couldn't paint my room today.

anyway i am really tired of trying and i don't feel like doing anything anymore. including my birthday. i'll just snuggle up in bed all day and sleep. and school, it doesn't even exist for me anymore.

2006-07-06T01:12:00.000+08:00

la france, s'il vous plaît gagner ce soir l'allumette (translation: france, please win tonight's match.). my left eyelid has been twitching for hours. i hope it's a good omen but it doesn't really matter except that it's pretty unnerving and annoying. speaking of which, i watched just my luck today with stef and daph! loving the lindsay : )

at the masquerade party

yummy

her brother is also yummy scrumboes

came home around 9p.m. and all i wanted to do was just die in my bed and sleep forever but i was coerced to start packing especially when we were supposed to move some things over tonight but by the time i'm through with a trunkful of books and three boxes of clothes, i find my parents SLEEPING. i mean i talked to my mum halfway and she just fell asleep on me. i am past my sleepy mode, so i'll file my mountainful of worksheets before sleeping. guess i won't watch the match tonight. i'll have nervy spazs along the way anyways. bad thing about staying up is i always always always get the munchies. shall busy myself like a bee!

2006-07-02T03:42:00.000+08:00

what a chimney today. gawddd my knees hurt like fuck. it's about 4a.m. but i'm going to watch some OC anyways. tomorrow (or today, technically) is a sunday after all. pretty please pray for brazil to win BY FULLTIME. i'm watching OC instead of soccer because i am suffering from some serious soccer-fatigue and i cannot wait for world cup to end so i will stop brooding over my losses. knn. anyone has a job to introduce me? preferably something that requires little time, no energy and basically to do nothing. thanks. chocolate squares (caramel whip!!!) or all butter shortbread (29% butter omggg)?

2006-07-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

anyway i think i'm really starting to hate soccer laaa haha i lost sooo much. actually i won a lot of matches but the matches i lost, i bet a lot on. so overall i'm down two hundred plus which is a big fat sian. something more exciting, i'm finally moving! next week, i guess. must think of a colour to paint my new room which hopefully isn't too small. and yeah i haven't seen the house because i didn't go to see potential houses with my family. i'll miss my house and pasir ris. pasir ris is a place of breeze and tranquility.

on my 1 metre-high bed

MESSY

haha anyway i want to show everyone who i spent half of my holidays with. about ten to fourteen plus hours a day. my small girl, daphne!!! i am kingkong next to her.

us at our not-so-secret hideout

also, mid-years don't exist to me anymore, hence i watch an average of seven OC episodes a day (seriously). after a retarded one-hour economics mcq paper at 2.30pm in the hot classroom, i went to meet chinleng and sijia! as usual, we ate and talked and took photos. hahaha. it is very hard being vegetarian, it's been almost two weeks though! everywhere isn't vegetarian-friendly.

at shaw macs

super sleepy now but i have to stay up to watch a la folie.. pas du tout (he loves me, he loves me not) before my sister returns the dvd tomorrow. tireddd. nowadays i just feel like staying home and watching stuff. don't really feel like going out anymoreee. however, to meet up with people i love, i overcome my great inertia and roll out of the house to meet them. lurvelyyy. i will make a toasted cheese sandwich now to reward myself byeee.

2006-06-27T01:01:00.000+08:00

honestly, if i didn't put my money on italy, i would have rather australia win because they played better (to me) and they deserved to go to the quarter finals more so than the italians. the italians are definitely not living up to their name. and the term socceroos is just damn cute. HOWEVER, i am glad because heng heng got penalty kick eight seconds before the fulltime whistle went off. HENGGG. ha ha i swear the referee just cannot take another thirty minutes of refereeing so he just called for a penalty. train your fitness la. anywayyy it was in my favour so i shall not complain. i can't afford to lose anymore. i had to grin to myself like an idiot behind my chemistry notes after totti scored (in case my family members become suspicious or think that i am plain mad).

anyway i like the photos from my phone! damn good la. i want to get a microSD card so i can store more nonsense in my phone. i got a new phone, it looks a lot like my old one but i like the functions. it's the one advertised by err ronaldo. my mum got the slim samsung slide phone. the song on the advert for that phone is stuck in my head. i'll post a couple of pictures soon!

hoho ok i think i should go and read a bit more since my bloody mids start tomorrow. is mj the only school who has full length mids? sadistic. i feel like dyeing my hair jet black! and going for hair treatment as well. wah anyway no kick i just realised i only won seventeen bucks. but better losing fifty more in addition to my two hundred. ok night, amigosss!

2006-06-24T01:06:00.000+08:00

wah fuck i am damn sian now. actually i have a lot of things to complain about and also a few things to be happy about but i am just too sian (not angry or anything, just freaking sianzzz) to blog so i am only blogging this stupid line so i can satisfy my blogging desire which is talking to myself basically yup bye.

2006-06-22T10:45:00.000+08:00

ooh i just got an email from atiqah fairuz who's having fun at new york! she's going on a ball on a cruise for her last night there and it sounds like tonnes of fun! so exciting, people should email each other more. this is the first proper email i received in ages! she mentioned about the difference in cultures and how asians learn to keep quiet but over there people voice their opinions without hesitation, and even she, whom i consider pretty outspoken already, loses out. SO SPEAK THE FUCK UP, PEOPLE. can't wait for her and nat to come back with stories! it's bobby's birthday today, but since he's there too i can't wish him happy birthday. i have mentioned it here so that i can show him that being a very good friend, i didn't forget.

would you rather be normal, or not? someone has to be normal so that those who are not can be not. rah ok going to buy a new phone later but i am not very bothered about which one i want. i just need a phone that functions. oh yessss very sian argentina and holland drew, freak. i came online just to check the score and i have spent way too long here. so peace out dudes.

2006-06-22T00:53:00.000+08:00

i forgot to say this in the previous post. i saw a rainbow today : ))) it wasn't very clear and not super visible to the naked eye so i don't think anyone else saw it : ( i was wearing my shades and somehow they made it more visible. i was quite happyish after seeing the rainbow. rainbows are on my list of good things.

2006-06-21T23:23:00.000+08:00

went for highlife@zouk just now which was quite ok, pretty interesting. most of the models were quite hot, few friends were up there too. i don't give two shits about the anti-drug cause btw. anyway i'm suffering from some excruciating stomach pain. it's not like diarrhoea but neither is it cramps, so honestly i don't know what is the cause so how am i going to cure this pain? it has been plaguing me for more than six hours. the only good thing which is happening now is that portugal is leading 2-1. KEEP IT UP!!! i like your egg tarts man. i hope mexico doesn't score anymore. i am in a blah mood i shall eat chocolates. speaking of which, i am now vegetarian. adopting a hippie lifestyle from now on. ok my stomach hurts too much bye.

2006-06-18T05:51:00.000+08:00

what the fuck is wrong with italy? knnb i am so DOWN. tomorrow's matches are damn fucking scary to bet on. i am only betting to recoup my damn losses but i keep losing??? oh goodness shit i should never have started but IT IS TOO LATE NOW. i cannot stop until i win (overall). bloody nabei i hate italy now.

hum ok no pictures to accompany my blog so that makes it x10000 more boring than it already is. friday was spent with old girls (joyce, xue, minjen, kexian, rau+bf who came in the evening and joan who came at night) to celebrate joyce's birthday! which is technically today, so happy nineteenth my joycie darling! lunch at fish&co., followed by dessert at marmalade pantry, drinks at indochine while watching soccer and heehee argentina won 6-0 : ))) swee swee, i tell you. should've bet 917574819482 bucks on that match la. haha it was real fun even though NO STUDYING done.

today was a party at dxo to celebrate's sijia's birthday, which is technically yesterday (i am so technical), so happy eighteenth chibimarukochan! no more id dramamama nonsense and no more pretending to be born in china and shizz. there were up and downs but i just wanted everyone to enjoy. it was quite strange at first because everyone was facing the screen watching soccer while dancing.

i shall admit now that i was/am (hopefully not am) blind and stupid. what the hellllllll was i thinking in all those instances?!?!?! i may be semi-blind now but at least i know what i want and why i want. i grew a brain, brilliant. aiyah but half a brain will do no good when i need to cram two subjects in seven days or so. wish me luck. actually i'd rather have more luck for soccer than mid-years because i have semi-given up on mid-years but i still have pretty high hopes for world cup. i am a commited student, yes.

2006-06-17T00:59:00.000+08:00

I LOVE ARGENTINA!!!

2006-06-15T22:04:00.000+08:00

nowadays my life has been: movies, soccer, studying (or pretending to), eating. umm that's about it. oh and an hour of tennis yesterday. i've watched three movies consecutively on three days: she's the man, cars and x-men 3 (haha slow, i know). hahaha not too bad! i think i've watched more movies the past month than i did last year. soccer is plaguing my life. i sleep late (to watch soccer) and wake up early (to watch movie). studying and eating done in between. i am left with macroeconomics, statistics and some others for math, ALL of physics and chem. lalala. smart right. sigh i am quite filled with sadnosity because i am not going for the cip camp anymore, as my UNPREPARED classmates (ya right) have not finished studying (please compare to me). bye bye st. gab's boys.

anyway, starbucks wins coffee bean any time of the day. team starbucks! ok random. i need some steady get rich quick scheme to buy my shoes and a new dress. freak!!! anything but betting because betting is not steady, from the words of a certain wise man, "the ball is round." yeah i know i am rambling already, so TTFN.

2006-06-14T02:26:00.000+08:00

OMG what the freak!!! ok even if you do not know me, do a good deed by praying for me for one month!!! i will mug my sorrows away tomorrow. and i will also eat grass.

2006-06-12T02:13:00.000+08:00

when people move on away from us, are we supposed to be sad or are we supposed to be happy that they have found someone new? as much as some of us resist changes, we cannot have everything under control.. it just saddening to know that you do not mean as much anymore, or even any at all.

why is everyone and everything so damn bloody boring?! i am going to dream of slurpee ha ha ha good night.

2006-06-11T21:53:00.000+08:00

1) smoked
2) consumed alcohol
3) slept in the same bed with someone of the opposite sex
4) slept in the same bed with someone of the same sex
5) made out with someone of the opposite sex
6) made out with someone of the same sex
7) had someone in your room of the opposite sex
8) watched porn
9) bought porn
10) done drugs
TOTAL: 8

11) taken pain killers
12) taken someone else's prescription medicine
13) lied to your parents
14) lied to a friend
15) snuck out of the house
16) done something illegal
17) cut yourself
18) hurt someone
19) wished someone to die
20) seen someone die
TOTAL: 7

21) missed curfew
22) stayed out all night
23) eaten a carton of ice cream by yourself
24) been to a therapist
25) been to rehab
26) dyed your hair
27) received a ticket
28) been in a wreck
29) been to a club
30) been to a bar
TOTAL: 5

31) been to a wild party
32) seen the Mardi Gras
34) had a spring break in Florida
35) sniffed anything
36) wore black nail polish
37) wore arm bands
38) wore t-shirts with band names
39) listened to rap
40) own a 50 cent CD
TOTAL: 2

41) dressed gothic
42) dressed prep
43) dressed punk
44) dressed grunge
45) stole something
46) been too drunk to remember anything
47) blacked out
48) fainted
49) had a crush on your neighbor
50) had someone sneak into your room
TOTAL: 7

51) snuck into someone else's room
52) had a crush on someone of the same sex
53) been to a concert
54) dry humped someone
55) been called a slut
56) called someone a slut
57) installed speakers in your car
58) broke a mirror
59) showered at someone of the opposites sex's house
60) brushed your teeth with someone else's toothbrush
TOTAL: 6

61) consider Mac, Dre, e40 or Mistah Fab your favorite rapper
62) seen an R rated movie in theaters
63) cruised the mall
64) skipped school
65) had an eating disorder
66) had an injury
67) gone to court
68) walked out of a restaurant without paying
69) caught something on fire
70) lied about your age
TOTAL: 4

71) owned an apartment
72) cheated on your boyfriend/girlfriend
73) cheated with someone
74) got in trouble with the police
75) talked to a stranger
76) hugged a stranger
77) kissed a stranger
78) rode in the car with a stranger
79) been sexually harassed
80) been verbally harassed
TOTAL: 5

81) met face to face with someone you met online
82) stayed online for 12 hours straight
83) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours straight
84) watched TV for 12 hours straight
85) been to a fair (like the computer kind also counted?!)
86) been called a bad influence
87) cursed
88) prank called someone
89) laid in the bed with someone of the opposite sex
90) cheated on a test
TOTAL: 10

91) cheated on homework
92) held hands with someone of the opposite sex
93) been pushed into a pool
94) played pool
95) watched 5 hours of mtv straight
96) had a crush on someone 10 years older than you
97) had a crush on someone younger than you
98) wear eyeliner
99) skinny dipped
100) laughed at someone who was seriously hurt
TOTAL: 6

wahhh i got 60 which is a B omg B for bad. however it is only a borderline grade and this is not truly reflective of myself because how is going for a pet fair being bad?! or to eat one carton of ice-cream?! or to dye your hair?! ooh ok i have the soccer channel thing now so i can watch any match i want to. but i want to watch csi now byeee.

2006-06-10T16:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday's weather was against me again.. woke up early to head down to boon lay to play some tennis and swim with chah, giff and debby but debby decided not to come : ( did manage to do both in the end despite the heavy downpour in the morning although the water was freezing cold! and of course there was no sun. if that sounded healthy schmealthy to you, i had five slices of pizza, chicken wings and chocolates after that.

watched costa rica vs germany last night so i slept till noonish today. ate, downloaded stuff and watched tv. SO AS YOU CAN SEE, i have forgotten the existence of midyears. wah lao freak and i have so many other things to do like i want to watch four movies and go out celebrate friends' birthdays and everything. i am going out later for no reason also. ok actually for dinner with the girls. i have to start preparing about now so i will be punctual. wondering if i should lug my econs notes along to read on the way so i don't feel so guilty???

anyway starhub sucks la what pay-per-view damn bloody expensive ok?! i want to watch rugby and tennis also.. and mtv really sucks nowadays when are all the springbreaky stuff coming!

2006-06-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

last night was mmm complicated. got bounced first time in four years even though i swear my damn acting was oscar-worthy. haha but even then my night became interesting (this term bears little positive connotations here) when i offered to share cab home with a smashed someone. woke up this morning with a thought stuck to my head: i have fabbity fab fab friends! that is vair true. further confirmed by messages of lurve (of sorts) from satc girls and also chahsie's confession of her love for me. then even though the weather went against me by pouring cats, dogs, elephants, monkeys and an entire zooful, i managed to meet up with bee (thanks to my dad fetching). it is never boring to spend time with that turtle!

man, even though eyelashes are supposed to protect your eyes from dust and irritation, they are usually the source of irritant for me. if you look into my skull i bet i have at least a kg's worth of eyelash collection there.

hoho ok supposed to be nerding, of course. i am really beyond screwed for midyears but i am maintaining a positive outlook on this. math is vair good for your soul.

jiawen: yesss of course i remember you. i think i still have you on my msn list.. i couldn't sign your guestbook because i can't seem to access guestbook pages anymore.

2006-06-04T12:25:00.000+08:00

oh greattt i was supposed to wake up an hour ago to catch csi at noon but now i have to catch that episode at night. i couldn't wake up because i was having this frigging congo-ish dream in a junglish swamp place with freaking crocodiles (quoted from the dream: "there are more crocodiles here than there are men on land.") and i know there were LOW and UNSTEADY bridges and a lot of people got eaten by the crocs etc etc etc and afterwards there were also addition of leopords/panthers of sorts. SO EXCITING. wah i almost got eaten up man, i was so freaking agile in the dream. i wonder what does this dream means. that i want to act in an anaconda-ish show but with crocodiles and alligators instead of snakes??? or that i should avoid junglish swamp things at all costs???

anyway my mad hat friend, jill yong, is leaving for vietnam today to BACKPACK ALONE. as i've said, she is mad. i am sure she doesn't know a single word of vietnamese and aren't there landmines in vietnam?! she was just going on about how she is definitely bringing her hairdryer there. let's pray for her safety and that she will return in one piece, and with nice blown-dry hair.

2006-06-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

really have to get down to trading in for a new camera and getting a new set of earphones soon! keep forgetting to bring the box down to apple.. it's vair annoying to have one side louder than the other. at first i thought the problem was in my ears. and i need a new camera so i can upload daily photos to accompany my posts!

wah i will not think about SATs anymore. i hope i do decently for at least two out of three. results are out on the 26th this month. hohum, it ended quite late and i met debby at the void deck. i tried to do math today.. debby's classmate, alaric, joined us too. i had craving for coke today! so strangeee. i was so tired (because i didn't sleep well last night) that i slept amidst all the construction noises beside the void deck at acjc. ok on to more exciting stuff.. dinner! we had mexican food at chachacha, debby had chicken quesadilla, alaric had chicken burrito but he didn't eat the bean paste and i had chicken enchiladas. we spent a long time deciding on dessert before settling at gelare. that was pretty funnn haha then they gave me wrong directions. so i couldn't get to buona vista mrt and i went to town to meet chinleng and sijia instead. bumped into jill too so the four of us had a major gossiping session until we lost track of time.

here i am at home.. i missed lost this week so if anyone has the episode please send me!!! zan, do you have?! i have a hard time differentiating cramps from hunger pangs. sigh anyway i don't know why my house is always plagued with cockroaches. i saw one in the shower and my mother said i screamed so loud that i scared both my dogs. i ran out of the shower and thank God my mother was at home. ok very late already i must sleep and dream of good things, i.e. not cockroaches. even the word disgusts me, so i shall coin a new name for them. from now on, i will call them jabbers. such a harmless and flooby word. night! minus jabbers.

2006-06-02T21:43:00.000+08:00

guess it wasn't much of school for me after all. after gp, we went out to eat and came back purposefully for three lectures. but after doing absolutely nothing productive during the first lecture (physics), i decided to go home. results: 1/3. on wednesday, i went late so i skipped a lecture, and i left early so i skipped double econs lecture. results: 2/5. thursday, i woke up late, went to school to drop off some stuff before meeting daphne. results: 0/3. today, woke up even later and met with friends at three hours past the meeting time. results: 0/4. final result: 3/15. wah FAIL.

met up with OLD friends today, mainly chah, zan, debby and samz. i haven't seen samz in the longest time, and she is the queen of pangsehing, or of forsaking whatever other things for her other half. haha in a usual 410 manner, we hardly got any work done. i will be hardworking tomorrow! SATs tomorrow. quite scared because i feel extremely ill-prepared and i really need to do well!

ashlee simpson had a lovely nose job but the latest collagen lip thing is just plain gross and makes her look sooo plastic surgeried and ugly.

rarghhh okokok bye i will try and relieve some stress by reading more gossip websites.

2006-05-29T23:21:00.000+08:00

wah knn i can't believe i have to go for a motherfucking gp exam tomorrow and there're lectures till 5.05p.m.!!! wednesday and friday hold 5 straight lectures in a row while thursday has 3 and all these excluding tutorials. i hate mjc, they can all suck cock and die somewhere ok?! i know i should stop complaining but i really cannot help it.

because i had a nice time the past few days. wanted to swim/tan yesterday but the skies were not with us, so i watched poisedon with my lezzie mate, it's not bad a show! shopped but didn't get anything because.. nothing seems to fit nicely. went to polo club with chah+giff today! as usual, i turned a lovely grey and i am radiating heat now. ate a lot today wahhh. cannot stop my mouth. i have been craving carrot cake (the rectangular chinese ones) for the past couple of weeks. omg i love it!!!

for those who were wondering, i did go to somewhere romantic with my lezzie mate on saturday and we had lovely candlelit dinner facing the river. and i did watch the taiwanese drama serial from the start.. but i am not as feng kuang as the rest of the girls so i am only at episode 11.

why do i keep putting myself in that position? it is like going back over and over again to the thing that kills you the most.

er anyway i did some quiz thing and it is accurate to some extent. it said that i should major in theatre, and my other strong interests are mathematics, dance (ha ha ha i am not fairy i must tell you), engineering, socialogy, psychology and anthropology. i like the idea of doing theatre actually but i don't think i am brave enough to take a step like that.

hum have been pretty clumsy lately, besides my wonderful papercuts, i bit my tongue very hard the other day and it hurt sooo much for a few days and i managed to bite it again today??? must be a sign that i have been eating too much. i have a hugeee popping-out bruise from banging into the side of the swimming pool as well. my tongue truly hurts.

sigh i must go prepare myself mentally for the mental torture tomorrow that is called school. double pooey with no knobs.

2006-05-27T11:25:00.000+08:00

pooey lately. self-high singing with yiling waiting for the bus to take us to jalan besar. soccer match was sooooo pooey because mj played well and we scored in two beautiful goals and were up 2-1 until the last 15 minutes or so. the tmd kayu referee gave jkhoo a freaking red card and things started going down from there plus lady luck started to smile on vj. so they scored three freaking tyco shit goals and the whistle went off and it was like omggg. so much sadnosity. was so sad to see something that the boys really wanted taken away from them. anyway after that i think people were very high-strung or something because there was some bad tension between the few of us. hohum but i went to eat with shanchun, oonyong and alden at marina with the intentions of going to alden's sister's place to eat but ended up at carl's jr. ooh i haven't shopped there before!

all of today's plans didn't work out and so i really declare war with my attached friends who are very pooey and that i am not going to talk to them unless they talk to me. because i am vair tired of trying. i watched five hours of desperate housewives until 4a.m. but i was rudely woken up by the loud dripping of the raining phenomenon in my room (my aircon) at around 9a.m.. there is nothing on tv. man, cable tv in singapore sucks shit. i might have to resort to watching the taiwanese drama serial on youtube that the other satc girls are obsessed about. which i might. my productive plan for today is to arrange my worksheets and file them away proper. going to meet my lezzie mate for dinner later, probably somewhere romantic.

something strange has been going on with me lately.. i've been getting A LOT of papercuts. on my right hand, i have one on my fourth finger, one on my middle and two on my index which hurts!

actually i'm still quite sleepy so perhaps i will go sleep.

2006-05-23T20:45:00.000+08:00

green slipped out of school at about 1p.m. today.. partly because i didn't feel like going for math s after school, gp and pe are useless and econs is blah cos i am a conkhead at it now, but MAINLY cos maybeline that piece of shit TRICKED me into going to watch tennis finals with her. and the worst thing was she wasn't even super interested in watching, just because a certain PHD was there. but i forgave her because i am full of maturosity even though i was a total extrasocity there. however, i love watching tennis so it was quite alright. rj lost for both girls and boys, vj girls and ac boys got first. also i got to see a lot of darlings, charmie, sheila, debby, debbie, aneeta, cat the anorexic, and so on. humdeedum i just hope my form teacher isn't too free to read blogs if not he will not sign my green slips anymore. i did feel very nauseous today. it must be the heat.

ooch i must go remove my ah-lian/donnatella versace-ish nail polish now before i cause more misunderstandings that i am an ah-lian of sorts and then err do some work. hopefully.

2006-05-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

hellooo i have nothing to wear tomorrow night! for one, i hate rewearing my clothes and for another, my choice of clothes has been cut down due to my increasing size. oh, the horrors.

on a lighter and brighter note, my favourite hippies won the amazing race!!! i don't even keep up with most of the seasons except this one where i started halfway cos there was nothing to watch on tv. i am totally in love with the hippies. bj & tyler rule! even though they are total laidback hippies, they have really good human relation skills, can speak few languages including jap fluently and are freaking college graduates from harvard and uc santa cruz!!! i was only semi in love with them but then i heard them speak jap and i was like :o omg i am in lurve! they beat the competitive frat boys, eric & jeremy, to win one million dollars! the other team in the final leg consists of ray & yolanda, a black couple. can't really remember the other teams, except this old couple, fran & barry, who are totally sweet and loving and they made it quite far into the race! ok since tyler is in love with some japanese girl, i will take bj even though he is shorter. woo woo woo!

have also been following lost, so you think you can dance, american idol, csi, svu amongst many other shows. i am a tv addict. but no longer confined to mtv.. man i don't even watch anything on mtv nowadays. except for motormouth yesterday which was quite funny hahaha hidden cameras taping people singing and doing a lot of funny shit in a car on the road.

doesn't this picture remind you of the magic school bus??? the one with miss frizzle with her frizzly orange hair and fun kids and the COOL SCHOOL BUS which can do about anything in the world! i remember one episode where it became very small and it went into a nose to see how it smells stuff and it pictured smell molecules as jigsaw pieces fitting into the walls of the nose. wah so educational! especially compared to the shit they show on CHILDREN'S CHANNELS now talking about LOVE and BOYS and MAKE-UP when they should be watching princess starla and captain planet and the magic school bus. oh and i must add that i totally love the simpsons, even after all these years. the school bus also has an iguana thing but no iguana beats quincy (from foxtrot)!!!

SEE HOW CUTE IT IS. it ROCKS. and i love foxtrot too.

woo i am no longer a loser because i finally went to watch a movie after my last movie, final destination 3! i managed to catch the da vinci code today at cathay together with daphne and stef. it was ok, i thought they brought out the essence of the book but people shouldn't pin such high hopes on it and expect it to be fantastic because then they would come out disappointed. hum we had ben & jerry's after that and then dinner. i love the tie-dye stuff at b&j cos they are very hippie-esque and of course reminded me of bj (wow bj -- ben&jerry?) and tyler. just had some huge ass chicken pie (supposedly the best pie around in singapore? i forgot, but it's supposed to be good anyway) which is really yummy and i am so full now.

hum i read off a snapple cap just now that smelling apples and/or bananas can help you lose weight, so if you are going on some weight-loss regiment.. smell your fruits more before you eat them. or if you are truly obese like me, just smell the damn fruits and then give them to any of your family members. i tried smelling the bananas in our banana split (with phish food, oatmeal cookie and dublin mudslide, topped with hot fudge and m&m's) just now and maybe i felt lighter but then after consumption, i wouldn't really say the same thing.

2006-05-17T18:19:00.000+08:00

I HATE MAKING DECISIONS. i just have to freaking list the pros and cons in my head and i will have such a hard time deciding which outweighs what. it is such a bad habit and i cannot stop it and it is the root of all my indecisiveness. thinking before deciding is good but i am sure thinking too much isn't. i am so unimpulsive now it bores me so much that i will do my math assignment just to show what an exciting person i am.

sigh ok i just got the news that rj lost to sa 15-10 in the rugby finals omggg.

and my knees have been totally killing me nowadays and all i do is walk from class to class to lecture theatre to canteen.

2006-05-14T15:49:00.000+08:00

really can't stand it when someone is such a freaking exhibitionist. i'm alright if it's artfully done but that is just yuck. very off-putting. anyway i won't continue because she didn't tread on my toes or anything.

someone has informed me that teachers randomly search for students' blogs. so free. if any teacher from freaking meridian junior college sees this, i would like to say that i hate the school. firstly because it believes in the welfare of the school and not the students (i think majority of this stems from esther lai's ways). i could really rant about this point forever. secondly, it leaks. actually it rains indoors. then, it has lousy aircons in lecture theatres which turn off once the bell rings but twenty-four blasting aircons in the hall which is damn bloody ridiculous. TIMETABLE SUCKS COCK. fuck you for making us having so many lessons till late everyday and very unneccesarily gp classes every-bloody-day. and we must go back for one entire week for june holidays for extra lectures??? the school system itself has done nothing for me. so one day when my voice is heard in the community, i would really like to say i give no thanks to my jc at all. i will also never donate money to the school, ever. teachers, to me, are under the school system but they are also a separate entity because they are individuals. but that doesn't mean i give credit to all of them. students/friends/classmates are of course totally different because we more or less suffer under this fucked up shit. but right now at this moment i feel not anger because i am really so over this.

i feel irritation cos something has been in my left eye for the past few hours and if i continue rubbing my eye, my eyeball will drop out.

hahaha for some reason this picture just cracks me up we look like monkeys. taken in the cab on our way to sally's party in march.

hum i don't know what to do about my hair. when i tie it up, my ponytail looks very ugly and retarded so i can't stand that. i can't braid my hair. i can't even freaking bun it up. but letting my hair down in school is very act chiozzz to me and the weather just screams at me not let my hair down. OK SHAVE! actually i just wanted to blog about the irritation in my eye, but i digressed as usual, so bye.

2006-05-14T00:27:00.000+08:00

very strange.. i have really been doing nothing of late but i still remain tired. i feel tired and i look tired (as informed by various people). this has been the case for quite a while already. i really wonder where the problem is because i can't pinpoint it.

anyway went to meet daphne and yuet today! had pepperlunch for the first time, it's alright but the more i ate my salmon and rice, the hungrier i got. i think i was craving for something salty or ice-creamy but i got a double chocolate donut instead. a mistake cos it left me feeling full, fat, lardy and thirsty. haha i got super high here and there. OK I WAS REALLY HIGH/MAD WHEN I SAW THESE. so i might sell my old ones (they are in PERFECT condition, wrapped and all) and buy the whole set of the new ones, or just get one/two of the new covers. i have this version (except for the dancing in my nuddy-pants one, it's in a different version cos i just couldn't find the same versh, and i haven't bought the boy entrancers one). so if anyone wants any of these, just tell me? ooh and my angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging is autographed by the author herself so i am really confused about what i should do. i wished i owned kinokunyia. ok i will stop obsessing with that. had a really good time with them and i always feel like i can be totally down-to-earth with them, which is what i really need sometimes. kissykissymuamua!

book covers are getting super nice! arghhhhhhh okok i will try and marry the heir of kino. haha freak louise rennison (the author of the georgia nicolson series as obsessed above) is so funny. will. stop. obsessing. omgomgomg i love books i am a geek i can read all day and read my whole life away!

singapore doesn't have enough bakeries. not those selling curry buns and kaya cakes and donuts and cheesebuns (i like those too, of course) but those selling really yummylicious chicken pies and pastries and such. there were plenty of those when i went to new zealand. when you walked past them, you could smell the pastry in the air. so vair tempting. it was vair fun because my sister and i would of course be tempted and follow the smell trail into the shop. then we would pick a few and we would buy them and eat them all and they were all so yummy and we were satisfied like that. i wouldn't mind having a replica of the fish&chips place in dunedin. very cheap and good fish, kumara fries, fries and whole fried mars/moro bars. a meal at fish&co. could buy all of that!

had a really strange dream last night. one part of it was me farting a lot but refusing to go the toilet to poo and a teacher/some lady in her 50s (i forgot what she was in my dream) scolded me for stinking up the place. another part was this holiday resort thing and there were two houses and we had to swim from place to place. two people died on the last day of the trip. they were both old (50s-60s) men. fathers/uncles? one was probably of drowning and the other heart attack in the water. VERY WEIRD. i want to buy a new dreamcatcher.

2006-05-13T00:01:00.000+08:00

i haven't been so happy in such a long time (despite my non-existent hair omggg)!!! made chinleng wait forever in the morning (sorry!) and then we shopped! not a very extensive shopping trip but we managed to buy some stuff : ))) of course had food, then settled down at the new starbucks@wisma (i love it! i will hang out there every day if my school was still near town.) with the intention of doing work (which was the main purpose of meeting up) but ended up talking for a few hours. hahaha seriously what is new. ended up with a really bad thirst and sore throat after that. meishu (!!!) joined us and we made our way to this moroccan bar, marakesh (i think?), at clark quay. super super super fun and nice just chilling there with our drinks (i ordered a drink called absolute stress, haha quite appropriate right), a shisha pipe and hiphop music from outside followed by moroccan music because we wanted the full moroccan atmosphere. my virgin shisha experience! chinleng's too. we had strawberry flavour : ))) chin had to leave to buy a cake.. so we shisha-ed some more and ordered hummus (pronouced as homos, apparently), which was pita bread with chicken paste dip. damn yummylicious, especially cos i was pretty hungry. small serving though so i was still hungry after that. basically i wanted to record all these down because it was such a lovely day for me! pictures aren't up so here is a picture of a shisha pipe.

shisha pipe

heehee if life could be like this all the time! okokok happy girl is going to sleep now and hopefully have some yummy dreams. i need a new dreamcatcher, i think my current one is not working anymore.

2006-05-12T00:20:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness. i have neverrr complained about having my hair cut too short, usually i think that my haircut is alright or perhaps longer than i would have liked it to be, but this time it is different. THE HAIRDRESSER CHOPPED OFF HALF OF MY HAIR. i cannot believe this. i clearly stated that i "just wanted to cut the fringe" and perhaps "minimal trimming" and that i want to "keep this length" but noooo the hairdresser decides my hair is too THICK and LONG and cuts it all off?! i am never going to have enough hair to perm at this rate la KNN. my day was pretty good sans haircut. i felt happy enough because of wednesday afternoon to "dress" happily today. i carried my flower bag together with my usual flower file and my usual flower pencil case with a flower in my hair. sijia was great company after school too, she actually waited for me to cut my hair! aiyahhh i'm still in shock about my hair. so pissy.

some things i would like you to know
1. britney spears is pregnant again!!! how stupid is she?
2. tj netball is in top 4! so super proud of biyi : ))) all that effort paid off!
3. sajc beat acjc to go to rugby finals against rj
4. i hate my haircut so much
5. i don't know how to shut up!
6. so goodbye i am going to sleep with hopes that my hair will grow at least 3 inches overnight.

2006-05-10T22:58:00.000+08:00

amazinggg i went to school twice in eleven days! from thursday to the next sunday. skipped physics test the following tuesday, supposed to do make-up tomorrow evening but nyehhh i am going to meet sijia! my fourth finger still hurts like shite after almost three weeks??? is it supposed to hurt/swell that long : ((( it's very fat and ugly and when someone proposes to me, the ring will never be able to fit : ((( so to whoever is planning to propose to me, buy a bracelet ok? i think my wrist isn't very big.

haha anyway today is quite a good day. the past few days weren't so good, even though i wanted to blog very sad and emo entries, i was so sad and emo that i didn't blog and just went to sleep. today was a short day and everything went ok.. i even managed to sleep through the entire chem lecture. after school was full of slackity stuff with netballers! especially caroline, farz and neh. wooooo i love them!!! super fun. talking to neh thirst me so much i drank about two and half bottles of water. but i am also very very very sad that our tennis boys didn't make it to top 4! i had very high hopes pinned on them!

ah anyway the weather is killing me la it is damn hot and humid. tap water is freaking hot! not even warm, it's hot! my lips are reallyyy dry! i'm so excited i shall buy new lip balm. i should've bought the burt's beeswax lip balm at the flea market! dayamn. woo look what i found. my favourite neoprint from the past! wow i was quite black huh.

2006-05-06T23:12:00.000+08:00

rj dance night, amarante, was cute! loved the jazz costumes and the last segment which my lovely cat choreographed with another dancer. haha and the walk after the concert together with sijia and chinleng was freaking hilarious, i wanted to die of laughter!!!

met debby at killiney's for tea before going to a flea market at some warehouse. wah there was no aircon and it was really packed, so it was freaking hot. a lot of vintagey stuff and all that there but it was too hot and crowded for me to look at anything properly. it was quite an experience though, i haven't been to a flea market before. mi3 was sold out, so the last movie i've watched still stands at final destination 3. omg i'm a loser! haha loads of walking around and eating : ) i am really tired from all that but i must must must finish my charged particles tutorial tonight.

haha general elections are really alien to me. i will go eat my milk&berry honey stars!!! how cute is that!

2006-05-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

i know i keep running away. from everything.. especially school. it's becoming a rare occurence when i go to school. gave myself an extended 5-day holiday because i didn't go last friday and this tuesday. even so, my skin still managed to flare up. i am probably not going again tomorrow. sometimes i have the energy to go through school, but i don't have the tutorials to go along. i know tomorrow is one of those days when i will totally abhor school and will probably want to cry about every period. man, i am sounding more and more like a basketcase.

i've decided that a >>>>>>> r. so much goddamn more.

i'm going to sleep now. the bed is always a nice place to be.

2006-05-01T23:14:00.000+08:00

did a couple of tests today. shall post the colorgenics test results again. it's the third time i'm taking it.. i got that last paragraph before so i guess it really pertains to me. this thing has always been pretty accurate it's quite scary.

colorgenics test results

you feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. this is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. in this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.

everything seems to be going against you this time. try as you may you are meeting with considerable resistance at every turn. nothing is going as you would plan. the situation is difficult and you are trying to persist in your objectives against resistance. it would appear that you are being very secretive about your future plans just in case people around you try to thwart you.

in spite of the fact that you believe that your hopes and ideas are idealistic, it is hard for you to accept that your needs and desires are misunderstood by almost everyone within your sphere of influence and there is no one to turn to or rely on. your pent-up emotions and inherent egocentricity make you quick to take offence, but as matters stand you realise that you will have to make the best of things as they are.

you feel that you must have co-operation from those close to you before the existing stressful situation can be improved. you feel that no one understands you and this lack of understanding and appreciation makes you feel completely isolated. you need that feeling of security and would like to get away from what you now consider depressing shackles. you have that need to re-establish your own individuality but your sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for you to let go - to open up, but they way you are feeling at this time makes your feel that 'enough is enough' and you are prepared to give in. this disturbs you as you feel that this attitude is an obvious sign of weakness - an attitude to be overcome and so in spite of this situation you feel that in order to assert your own individuality you need to continue to practice self-restraint.

you really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. your attitude to work and to life is that 'if it's not fun - then don't do it'. you want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.

must put this down so i can read it from time to time. think it is really quite accurate for my position now.. hmm i am such a tv addict! i watched lots of tv including some freaky deaky korean horror show about dolls and brothers grimm which is fun to watch. i could just stay at home all days with my dogs and watch tv. but at least i got out today.. oh yeah i think i must totally be out on weekends if not i'll never get any work done. so if you need a studying partner, just holla. there's a chem test tomorrow morning.. think i will go for the test but not to school. i'm not strong enough to face school now. which means it will be a five-day weekend for me (from friday to tuesday). no school no 2.4km run no training nonono i am not going for any of those bye.

2006-04-29T14:51:00.000+08:00

basically i have been doing nothing while doing something these days. and school work is such a foreign concept, i am lost for every single damn subject. i didn't even know there was a chemistry test next week rarrr. skipped school yesterday.. it was also colosseum (sports day). well, my house (triton) won.. but whatever i just want my pompoms back. met some 410 girls at california pizza at forum! kind of like aneeta's birthday thing. it was comfy being with them again : ))) jazz concert with chin and sijia at night which was alright. i like jazz.

feel like watching many animated films now! like xiaoqian and howl's moving castle and spirited away. woo i watched xiaoqian a few times already, i lovelovelove it. i'm going to name my dog solid gold too! i forgot what it is in chinese.. qian jin? it's so cute la! there's a new member in the house.. ok but just a temporary one. my sister-in-law's friend's dog. it's a collie, it is sooo pretty! but it's a boy. it knows how to do a high-five!

supposed to see a doctor to try to get a permanent mc. so super lazy to see a doctor. anyway to those who want to know, i am taking my SATs in june at acjc.. i'm taking physics, chemistry and mathematics 2. wish me loads of luck! it was international ben&jerry's day on tuesday? my sis and i bought this pint of b&j's which the dave matthews band helped created!

it is vanilla ice cream with fudge brownies and raspberry swirls. surely i am going to buy more pints. want to get oatmeal raisin, fossil fuel and more phish food. i love ice-cream and it is never more appropriate than in weathers like these.. haha what a happy post bye!

2006-04-24T21:11:00.000+08:00

saw this in azlyn's blog so i decided to do it since all my fingers are going to drop off (from slamming my fingers into hard balls, netballs, that is), so i am incapable of doing any written work.

my ex is older.
maybe i should chosen a different path.
i don't understand gravitational field and why people do what they do.
i lose my temper easily.
people say unimportant, insignificant shit.
love is purest unrequited.
somewhere, someone is taking a poo.
i will always try to be consistent and hardworking but fail miserably.
forever is only a concept.
i never want to lose my loved ones.
i think the current US president is quite annoying.
when i wake up in the morning i go right back to sleep.
my past has been quite interesting.
i get annoyed by toilets which are dirty or have no toilet paper or both.
parties are getting old and getting lousy.
kisses are the best when they are from someone who lubs you!
tomorrow i want to pon school.
i really want jc to be over and for me to get into a good uni.
i have low tolerance for incompetence.

i don't know why on earth i am so bloody tired even though i hardly played just now. and no, i don't mind not playing, it doesn't really matter to me. just that i have very lovely tanlines as usual. razorback tan, jersey tan, shoe tan, slipper tan, shorts tan, tape tan and knee guard tan. vair pretty. very sleepy. going to register for SATs online, neaten up my file and sleep. i think i always list what i want to do before i sign off because then i will feel safer. weird.

2006-04-23T23:11:00.000+08:00

season is really a waste of my time, i cannot wait for it to be over. slacked this whole weekend away (what's new), doing the usual, sleeping, eating, watching tv and talking. my room is really messy again. shall clean it up soon. my aircon was seriously raining two nights before, but i slept really soundly so i didn't notice anything until my dad came in in the morning and exclaimed that my entire floor was wet and the water even got outside my room. but now it's ok.. temperamental.

anyway i was researching a little on rheumatism, and the site says i "should avoid all meat and fish; white bread, sugar, and refined cereals; rich, indigestible and highly-seasoned foods; tea and coffee; alcohol; sauces, pickles, and condiments". this is also why i really don't like being in the rain because i will feel pain. maybe it's because of rheumatism, that's why i get injuries very easily : (

haha sigh i love saturdays.. laughed quite a bit. hahaha what with chinleng's comments and mayb's highness. and our lovely sijia the mugger decided to STAY AT HOME. it's ok, we still love you and all your nerdiness.

math test tomorrow and econs test on tuesday. exciting!!! knn i haven't studied yet i need to pack my bag and sleep already la.

2006-04-20T23:22:00.000+08:00

why do we try so hard to be so strong? is it so taboo to be weak? what's wrong with being weak and vulnerable and raw and exposed? sometimes it's bravery to not be strong.

my current book. it's overdue already!!! got to pay library fines. i love the cover.. i found another cover of it but i think i still like the top one more. i love such books. i want to watch the film!

my versh

another jacket

after-school activities today included blackforest ice-cream, soccer match (mj versus tj, mj won 4-2) and talking and laughing in the canteen for almost two hours! it's been a while since i laughed till my stomach hurt so much! haha i need to laugh more. my unhappiness shows more than i thought it does.

contemplating whether to go to school or not. guess i'll go but i really don't want to. i really dislike my gp teacher and we have double gp tomorrow plus i think we have to submit some essay. so much so that i don't really care even if i get zero for the essay. first match against aj tomorrow.. whatever i don't have much feelings about it. except why is it so late!!! if not i could've skipped double gp dammit.

gotta run to cut my nails, do the bibs for neh, pack my bag and sleep!!! shall sleep in the library during pe tomorrow too.

2006-04-19T23:15:00.000+08:00

people should understand that when i go to school, i really don't seek to impress anyone. especially not image-wise. the only reaons why i tie my hair in various ways (french braid, pony tail, anyhow bun, neat bun, using many-rubber-bands) are 1) getting my hair out of my face; 2) relieving my headache; 3) make my hair lighter because it weighs my head down; 4) to train without worrying about my hair; 5) air my scalp; 6) laziness. people kept going on about my hair today it gets quite annoying! i don't need any comments.. good or bad. also, my form teacher thinks that my hair is perpetually messy?! and i was already trying to be neat! he should see my hair when i try to be messy. speaking of which, i'm vairrr excited to grow my hair super long to curl it!!! wow i am so intellectual i just typed a whole paragraph about my own freaking hair.

i would love for this blog to be just in my mind but be real so i could refer to it whenever i want to, fuss-free, and i would be away away away from the judgemental eyes of people. then i can say things like i am really intrigued by anorexia, crime, smoking, alcohol, pills and pain.

one thing that amazes me (but in a bad way) is how people can purposely skip meals to diet even though they have freaking gastric. it's just stupid. haha but i am stupid too. i don't wear knee guards or tape my knees even though they hurt especially my right one because i don't like the idea of having such a bad tanline. today i injured my right ankle but it's not too bad. my fourth finger has been in pain since last week!!!

so late already!!! i am supposed to sleep early! no time to do chem or math! freak i really have to start sleeping earlier. ok before i go, a picture of jewel i wanted to post quite some time ago.

i just wanted to say that she would have gotten booked by prefects if she was in rgs hahaha.

2006-04-18T20:47:00.000+08:00

okokok i wish everyone will leave me and my pimples alone, they will GO AWAY if i had a one-month vacation in hawaii. i look in the mirror so i knowwwww ok?! anyway the people at school have it worse haha cos they have to look at me with all my hair pulled back and a makeup-less face, so i show everybahdee in school my big face and my eyebags and my pimps. lovely.

freak!!! i just freaking realised that i have NO TIME to take SAT 1 and 2 by this year so i will have to take 2 in june! i am soooo screwed! NABEI why aren't there more test dates?! stresssssssssssss. ok i will register by this week and maybe i will take THREE subject tests omg.

and screw that, i don't even know why i bothered in the first place.

very hungry and i am craving for the waffles again! those kaya/redbean/peanutbutter/etc things. i was totally craving for some on sunday and i got one slapped with lots of peanut butter and chocolate. AND TODAY I SUDDENLY REMEMBERED DINOSAUR GUMMIES. they are quite big for gummies and they came individually and in colours of blue+green or red+yellow and they are smooth (no sugar or anything) and soft and they are in the shape of dinosaurs. who remembers them?! i will marry the person who will find me some now!!! i think they are out of production so probably have to buy a factory and manufacture some new ones. i love the gummies!!!

2006-04-16T23:49:00.000+08:00

this weekend has been so lovely and FOOD-y! friday was at lala's house with many people, lots of food and fun games! xue, angela, joyce, minjen, kexian, tohqi and many friends of angela's and her friends' friends; mac'n'cheese, stew, hotdogs, rendang, beehoon, potato salad, handrolls, almond beancurd and longan, apple crumble and vanilla ice-cream; pictionary, bingo. plus lots of talk and catching up <333 got caught in the rain TWICE that day with xue. saturday was more slacking and talking with the satc girls and we took neoprints! haha so old school and i look like fug in all of them. today, as usual, was tv day with my indispensable three hours of csi with their many one-liners. but i am muchly sad! i didn't get any easter eggs this year! i want chocolate ones with caramel inside because they are the yummiest! i am really good at staying off chocolates : ))) i bought two bars of chocolate (kinder bueno and boost) but i didn't touch them.. so good!

wah.. school is such a bubble-burster.

i keep telling myself that regret is empty and useless but..

haha i always end on very sad notes but this time i shan't because i am actually quite happy. HAPPY THOUGHTS!!! flower power and electric magic and hairy fairies!!!

2006-04-13T23:25:00.000+08:00

i have been a good girl.. i haven't eaten chocolate for maybe two weeks or more? i cannot remember. but i still ate some ice-cream and donuts and lots of sugary stuff like mentos and chewing gum etc etc etc. i think i'm just sugar-dependent.

hummm i need a pumice stone, my feet are starting to looked wrecked. ooh i am so happy the weekend is here and tomorrow will be another lovely day! i can just feel it! lunch with xue and bunch at angela's (minus rau who's "dumping us for her man", as quoted by lala)!

sometimes boys should be eradicated.

2006-04-12T23:14:00.000+08:00

natural yogurt is an acquired taste.

it was nice and comfy hanging out with debby, chah and bee.

2006-04-11T23:28:00.000+08:00

maybe why i am always sick and tired and pimply and ugly is because i tend to sleep late every night. to me, sleeping at 1a.m. on a school night is perfectly normal and it's not because i'm doing my homework or studying but because i am online or watching tv or reading. i will try to sleep before 11.30p.m. from now onwards. i will start today once i finish blogging and checking ivle because i have been selected for the econs quiz argh! first it was the debate and now the quiz. anyway i didn't manage to do the debate because i was sick on that day and i didn't know the debate was scheduled to be on that day so alexis took my place, which is all good. but i really want to read ALL of my celebrity gossip sites because there are so many things to know! all the celebrity babies are popping out now! gwyneth paltrow, angelina jolie etc. i should join the papparazi.

i am in love with jason mraz.. i can play his songs on repeat all day. i'm learning to sing "i'm yours" and "who needs shelter" has been stuck in my mind for days!!!

training hasn't been easy, not because of training itself, but kind of annoyed with some people or just some stuff. think i've been rather snappish and maybe bossy. think i'm like that with classmates too. must learn to be more tolerant. i know i'm always hurrying people. such a meishu thing to do : )))

tomorrow would be a wonderful day if not for school! i hate all the SPA skill A in the world. i can't think or write fast enough. and i just sprained my fourth finger. it hurts and it's swollen and ugly. anyway it will be a wonderful day because wow i'm finally going out tomorrow i have been hermitting for over ten freaking days can you believe it! bloody record-breaking!

2006-04-08T01:11:00.000+08:00

nothing nothing nothing ever goes my way anymore.

2006-04-05T21:35:00.000+08:00

haha it is impossible to even think about school work when the living room (and the entire house) is BLASTING with music and sound from whatever show my siblings are watching, courtesy of the sound system and the volume my brother turns the damn thing to. freaking like cinema digital surround sound man. maybeeeee i will do a couple of tutorial questions later, very inspired by gwen's and lynette's grades.

watched five episodes of desperate housewives just now.. that's about four hours! anyway susan is so bloody annoying, i really don't see why anyone would like her. i hate that george guy too and i am so happy bree finally sees that he is really a nutcase and a loser. lovely way to spend my afternoon except i didn't have much choices in terms of snacks.

debby is eighteen!

daphne sent me these two pictures. my sixteenth birthday. i look really sleepy but also really happy. sleepy, probably because i slept during all the lessons and walked down to the canteen looking like that. happy, definitely because i was surprised by my lovely f4 with many presents and a birthday icecream tub of b&j's.

birthday ice-cream tub!

just feel like ending off with one of my two all-time favourite guess ads. loving the hair and the dresses and the models and the make-up.

2006-04-04T22:13:00.000+08:00

going to complain and whine again. am constantly sick sick and sick. nausea, headaches, backaches, toothaches. muscle aches too but i don't really mind that. need a doctor, dermatologist, dentist. need a haircut. need to rest.

give up give up give up.

all of you don't understand, even if you think you do.

two roads diverged in a yellow wood
and sorry i could not travel both

2006-04-04T00:14:00.000+08:00

too stupid and too late.

i want to be fair and pimpleless. rosy cheeks as a bonus.

i didn't do any school-related stuff again after training (which was fitness and conditioning, a long talk by miss choi and a talk amongst ourselves). also, i reached school at ten in the morning. the OM is bitchier than normal, perhaps because the principal and vice principal are away. he is really more of a discipline master than an operations manager, really.

i wished it would rain all day and i could stay in bed and sleep and pretend that i don't exist.

2006-04-02T21:10:00.000+08:00

question: what do you do when you find a book boring but you've already read it halfway? do you continue or do you stop? for the record, this is not in any way metaphorical.

there's this constant mucus-y feeling at the back of my nose/mouth but my nose isn't blocked and there isn't a substantial amont of phlegm either. this has been going on for several days and it is vair annoying. it also makes my stomach feel empty and wonky, so i eat even more.

have you tried playing spider solitaire with four different suits? it's damn difficult argh.

sometimes when i think about it, the only reason why i do it is for you.

2006-04-01T00:55:00.000+08:00

today was debby's eighteenth birthday party! the theme was green/pink! wore my lime green top even though it makes me look even more pregnant. someone gave her a watermelon, very creative. had a lovely chill out time with friends with yummy food and cake. even ramona talked to me! sorry for being tired/stoned/cold towards the end because was just feeling drained. love spending time with darlings!

"the rg bunch"
standing: debby the birthday girl / zan / joel
sofa: giff / chah / me / bee / bobby / ruiwen

decked out in green/pink with balloons to boot!

got back all of our block tests results already. AO for econs.. wow i got 5/25 for my essay! D for chem which is knn because it is the main cause of my not being to continue chem s. C for physics which is pretty miraculous. i would exchange my physics and chem grades any time to keep chem s. and A for math which is woohoo! pleasantly surprising.

tired tired tired i have to discuss the econs debate thing tomorrow wah laooooo cannot sleep in again tmd bye!

2006-03-29T21:57:00.000+08:00

pictures from zan's birthday thing and wow i was definitely not photogenic that day.

debby / me, waiting for everyone

the rg side plus giff (i look angry it's my eyes and fringe)

some of the rj people

the mastermind, joel and the birthday girl, zan

anyway i have been made to drop chem s, which has been the main cause for my misery nowadays. really knn. i have complained to a few people already so i am not going to rant here because it will just multiply my misery and i will feel blah all over again. now i am trying to decide if i should also drop math s and study for SAT 1 and 2 instead. anyway it is really very knn i hate the school a lot right now and i haven't told my parents yet. sorry to chinleng and sijia, that i cannot be in the cool 2 s papers club anymore. it will feel very weird to go to training on time on a thursday instead of trudging to the classroom or lt. if i cannot get into team then there is no point living and i will bloody kill myself already.

mmm anyway i've been contemplating church again. i was kind of living the double life and i was really sick of it so i chose the "sinful" way in the end. most church people don't know my doings out of church and the only sign of such doings is probably my tongue stud. friendster is quite dangerous but maybe it can help break the news gently to people.

this world is very hard to live in.

2006-03-27T23:02:00.000+08:00

when it rains, it pours shit.

2006-03-26T00:50:00.000+08:00

please think back and try to recall your life a few years back. the exact words you said, those little actions of yours, the people you hung out with, things that were important to you. many of those times are so precious to me, but when i think back, memories are few and vague. and as time passes by, we manage to remember less and less. it scares me.

today was zan's surprise party thing! it was pretty fun and i hope she enjoyed herself! happy eighteenth birthday to zannie, you goon!

i should stop coming online and start spending my time more constructively.. like reading seventeen (omggg lindsay's on the cover!!!) or gossip girl. spend wayyy too much on books! i'm going to borrow books from the library tomorrow, i'm so excited! besides the fact that i am very disturbed by how many million different types of germs from eeky people who borrow the book, i am totally fine with library books! so excitinggg i hope they have good books! i'll try my hardest not to borrow chick lit.

2006-03-24T00:59:00.000+08:00

Accidentally On Purpose says:
imagine me saying that with pride and gusto
Accidentally On Purpose says:
because i typed my eyes when i rolled that

hahaha wow biyi has dyslexia. anyway i haven't been drinking enough water nowadays, maybe that's why i felt so woozy during training. my lips think they are large hydrocarbons, i.e. they are cracking. i shall talk about some life lessons before i sleep.

life lesson 1: karma--what goes around, comes around.
life lesson 1.1: don't make fun of people with bad skin
life lesson 1.2: don't make fun of nerds
life lesson 1.3: don't make fun of anything which has the remote chance of happening to you/your kids/your parents/your partner

ok i thought of more stuff but i cannot remember now so i am going to talk about plants. i've always wanted a venus fly trap, cold storage used to sell them but now they don't so i don't know where to get one. i killed a cactus before but i am sure that was not my fault. my rose plant, bruise, survived for pretty long and flowered a lot of times before it dried up and died. i was quite sad. i had pretty flowers i chose by myself in my garden before but my dog, bingo, killed the plant with its pee (too salty?). in the same garden, we grew really nice, big and tall sunflowers which were taller than me at that point of time (about 1.5m). i am definitely getting some gardening genes from my mum and gramma. they love plants and flowers, flowers especially. flowers made them very happy in new zealand.

2006-03-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

if i continue being sick and sick and sick and dizzy and light-headed and nauseous ALL THE DAMN TIME, i can really say goodbye to being in the netball team. wow i think miss choi doesn't even give a shit anymore when i give myself breaks. must. recover. for. next. week. team is chosen next week pleasepleaseplease don't let me be out!!! this is very demoralising. please pray for me thank you. i'm vair worried.

anyway block tests are oh-vah, darling. totally gonna give myself a break tomorrow even though i have not been studying hard at all. my "studying" was usually done the night (like starting from 1a.m.) before (econs, math and physics) or the morning itself (chemistry). but it's oh-vahhh so i win.

hohum i had churros today. i need to go do a very exciting project about the Green Plan 2012 now.

2006-03-22T21:57:00.000+08:00

why couldn't i see
it's so easy to be happy

but the feeling is so fleeting
ephemeral

and soon darkness takes over again.

2006-03-20T22:52:00.000+08:00

oh my God please save me it is that time of the night again.

2006-03-20T22:04:00.000+08:00

ah.. old times. i know it's a fugly photo but i thought it encaptured quite a part of sec 4 life. and i don't usually wear that red hairband, it wasn't allowed and i think my hair was quite screwed up in school. fun fun fun and carefree times. sometimes i wonder do we make the past sound more glorious than it was because we don't like the present? nah, it was beautiful.

right now i am beyond FUCKED for my tests.. yesterday i watched two episodes of csi, "jue shi hao bra", a cartoon pig show and some other tv shows; today i watched jason mraz live dvd, mtv, some singaporean show about jailbirds, magadascar and so on. i read half a page of econs while watching the jail show. i also finished all my chocolates so my sore throat continues. i love love love moro!

are we truly in like/love or are we just here to win the game? are we only so hung over because our feelings are genuine or because we cannot bear to lose? or has our desire to win materialised emotions which weren't there in the first place? whatever it is, it is truly sad for us and the walls won't stop caving in.

2006-03-20T00:03:00.000+08:00

sore throat from too much chocolates. i love candy empire. i was supposed to have this reward system where i can have some chocolates after finishing a few topics but i slept while trying to memorise math formulae and gave myself twix, coffee&cream chocolate and peppermint chocolate anyway. my sister and i were playing with the colour twisties.. it was very tiring having our tongues hang out for really long to see what colour they become. we only managed to get green and blue.. what a scam : ( my sis said she had halloween twisties and they came in shapes of bones and skulls and stuffs and were supposed to glow in the dark and have a "ghastly flavour". cool tunes! i want to get tonnes of interesting snacks and chips and chocolates!

have some pictures to post up but blogger is being anal. the best i can get is probably EEOO for block tests, but that's alright as long they don't make me drop my s papers. i will plea temporary insanity. ok i did about two chapters of math, and read through three chapters of physics which i am sure i will not be able to apply, and hardly touched chem and econs. wow typing that out made it seem a lot less than it felt to me. never mind i will start being a full-fledged mugshit after terms.

2006-03-18T19:38:00.000+08:00

i am in love with jason mraz (but am not psycho-ass like those girls)! front row seats woooo : ) he's really really really good, along with toca rivera. words just do not suffice his/their greatness and funniness. we should've stalked him at the cleo bachelors party. opening act was the unXpected, they were pretty good too. but nothinggg can beat mraz! and i wanted to die because i really wanted him to play "i'm yours".. and he played it last!!! he saved the best for the last! charmie and i were totally exciteddd! since anal esplanade people don't allow photography etc etc etc (and the man in black was crawling everywhere to warn people about whatever they were doing was very annoying), here are some old photos i got off the net.

mraz the wizard of oohs and aahs and falalas

toca the man

they looked almost like that except in esplanade and mraz was on the right, toca on the left

so he made me pretty happy for a few hours mmm : ) thai express before that was good too, so was gelare after that. but you know nowadays i really don't feel like talking to anyone. maybe except cat and debby and chah. i wish everyone would just go away byeeeeeeeeee!

2006-03-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

bloody tired. sometimes from training, sometimes from work, sometimes from going out, sometimes from waiting, sometimes from sleeping too much, sometimes from sleeping too little, sometimes from being too sad, sometimes from being too hyper, sometimes from doing nothing. constantly tired. need. some. energy. pills.

i don't feel like going for block tests.

2006-03-14T00:07:00.000+08:00

gp test this morning, as long it's over, i'm glad. skipped the career talk and saved on an hour of wasted youth to eat lunch : ) friendly with blaze juniors (flame?) in the late evening. my kfc meal totally defeats my calorie loss during training. then i come home and my dad starts forcefeeding me with more food.

i really can't stand it when people nag at me repeatedly. but i try and contain my frustration and anger and outbursts. even my parents don't nag at me, i don't see why anyone else should. and it is always my fault and not yours. guess what, that's where you are wrong. sometimes it's you, sometimes it's me and sometimes it's the both of us. and i jump when i want to. so please leave me alone.

i am currently hating you and you and you and you and you and you and you and you.

ok, i'm not supposed to be hating. i am disliking you guys a lot right now.

i'm happier nowadays but i still wish some things were different and i need a dermatologist really badly.

rachael yamagata - be be your love

if i could take you away
pretend i was queen
what would you say
would you think i'm unreal
cos everybody's got their way i should feel

everybody's talking how i can't, can't be your love
but i want, want, want to be your love
want to be your love, for real
everybody's talking how i can't, can't be your love
but i want, want, want to be your love
want to be your love, for real
want to be your everything, everything

everything's falling, and i am included in that
oh, how i try to be just okay
yeah, but all i ever really wanted
was a little piece of you

and everybody's talking how i can't, can't be your love
but i want, want, want to be your love
want to be your love, for real
everybody's talking how i can't, can't be your love
but i want, want, want to be your love
want to be your love, for real

everything will be alright
if you just stay the night
please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away
please, sir, don't you walk away, don't you walk away, don't you walk away

2006-03-12T16:17:00.000+08:00

darken the statements that are true to you.
italise the statements that you wish are true.
leave the fibs alone.
then, stab 5 people to do the same test.

i miss somebody right now.
i don't watch tv these days.
i own lots of books. (how many is a lot?)
i wear glasses or contact lenses.
i love to play video games.
i've tried marijuana.
i have been in a threesome.
i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
i believe honesty is usually the best policy.
i curse sometimes.
i have changed mentally a lot over the last year.
i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
i'm TOTALLY smart.
i've broken someone's bones.
i'm paranoid sometimes.
i would get plastic surger if it were 100% safe, free of cost and scar-free.
i need money right now.
i love sushi.
i talk really, really fast.
i have long hair.
i have lost money in Las Vegas.
i have at least one sibling.
i have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
i couldn't survive without caller id.
i like the way i look.
i am usually pessimistic.
i have a lot of mood swings.
i have a hidden talent.
i'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
i have a lot of friends. (do friends include acquaintances? and again, how many is a lot?)
i am currently single!
i have pecked someone of the same sex.
i enjoy talking on the phone.
i practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
i love to shop.
enjoy window shopping.
i would rather shop than eat. (depends)
i don't hate anyone.
i dislike them.
i'm a pretty good dancer.
i'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
i have a cell phone.
i believe in God.
i watch mtv on a daily basis. (i used to)
i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (i didn't pass out!)
i've rejected someone before.
i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
i want to have children in the future.
i have changed a diaper before.
i've called the cops on a friend before.
i'm not allergic to anything.
i have a lot to learn.
i have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
i am shy around the opposite sex.
i have tried alcohol before.
i have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
i own the "South Park" movie. (used to)
i would die for my best friends.
i think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
i have used my sexuality to advance my career.
i love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
i watch Spongebob Squarepants and i like it.
i have dated a close friend's ex.
i am happy at this moment! (not ecstatic, but happy enough)
i'm obsessed with guys.
Democrat.
i am punk rockish.
i am preppy.
i study for tests most of the time
i tie my shoelaces differently from anyone else i've ever met.
i can work on a car.
i love my job.
i am comfortable with who i am right now.
i have more than just my ears pierced.
i walk barefoot whenever i can.
i have jumped off a bridge. (bungy jumping)
i love sea turtles.
i spend ridiculous money on makeup.
plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
i'm proficient in a musical instrument.
i worked at McDonald's restaurant.
i hate office jobs.
i love sci-fi movies.
i think water rules.
i went college out of state.
i like sausages.
i love kisses.
i fall for the worst people.
i adore bright colours.
i can't live without black eyeliner.
i don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing.
i usually like covers better than originals.
i can pick things up with my toes. (minimally, but it counts!)
i can't whistle.
i can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
i have ridden/owned a horse.
i still have every journal i've ever written in.
i can't stick to a diet.
i talk in my sleep. (i used to do that)
i try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
i have jazz in my blood.
i wear a toe ring.
i have a tattoo.
i can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
i am a caffeine junkie. (i would be if caffeine didn't give me headaches)
i cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
i have been to over 15 conventions.
i will collect anything, the more nonsensical, the better.
i'm an artist.
i only clean my room when necessary.
i like a person of the same sex.
i love being happy. (who doesn't?)
i am an adrenaline junkie.

ok that was one of my most honest posts ever. don't question, don't judge. i'll stab everyone who reads this including chinleng, maybs, chah, bee, eunice, xue and mr. inotfat! another productive sunday afternoon.

watched rugby sevens with cat just now. rj rugby jerseys are disgusting!!! the sun was totally superpower that i have more tanlines (especially obvious is my slipper tan) just by watching the games at the bleachers. i feel burnttt. so now i am radiating heat again. TOO HOT TO HANDLE!

2006-03-09T22:25:00.000+08:00

just watched fantastic four! wow chris evans is damn hot and he was sooo hawwwt in the show (pun not intended) even though he was being such an arrogant cockhead sometimes. i lovelovelove jokers! i think jessica alba isn't that pretty and she can't really act either.. but ok credit for her bod.

cellular

the human torch

wah chris evans and i are meant to be because i am radiating heat from training under the sun on wednesday. i haven't been under the sun (for prolonged periods) in months!!! anyway skipped chem s today to help out for trials. slacking slacking slacking. i just don't have the drive to push myself in anything i do zzz. i'm falling sickkkkk : ((( so sad why isn't there sji or angel/mortal in school! very very very boring. speaking of which, i totally don't feel like going to school tomorrow (as usual).

committing suicide is such a paradox. it sounds so gutless for them not being able to continue facing life.. but honestly it takes guts to commit the act. it may be selfishness on their part to abandon everyone here and to cause such misery and sadness but they should also be living their own lives and it's really their choice.. plus everyone has to die someday and many people die sudden deaths, it's hard to be prepared.

everyday, i have to tell myself that i've made the right choice.

i'm looking for it in all the wrong places.

is it not very sad/frustrating to not have what you want and to be able to have what you REALLY not want?! please go awayyy, undearest undesirables : (

2006-03-07T23:24:00.000+08:00

skipped school today happily, anyway i couldn't drag my aching body out of bed until 11a.m., i just wanted to sleep forever! slacked around then went to the doctor to get some phlegm medicine (i am really falling sick, again) and now my throat is very itchy but i don't feel like coughing. did some x-rays too but anyway no broken bones or hairline fractures, but tendon problems i guess. back to school tomorrow : ( poop it's going to midnight soon and it's hot so i'm going to bathe bye.

2006-03-07T01:51:00.000+08:00

KNN got a damn huge blister the size of my big toe ON MY BIG TOE! and being totally clever and shit, i cut off the skin and it's freaking raw nowww and it hurts! i put some cream on it. i think i'm never going to be able to walk. i'm really tired from the friendly with vj just now and i need a break from school (after one day haha) anddd i need to see the doctor and HENCE i am skipping school tomorrow. i am sure my dear form teacher will understand because he saw me going home at ten plus looking like a salted vegetable, sweaty and limppp. strangely, my sister was also in the same carriage.. what a small world. night i'm off to sleep it's really late. oh before i leave..

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2006-03-05T18:54:00.000+08:00

mozilla decided to be weird and now i lost all my history and bookmarks and urls and passwords. what a trouble to remember everything again.

why do i always ruin everything?

2006-03-04T00:07:00.000+08:00

sleeping in was lovely.. met up with my dearest chinleng today to get some work done. this may sound quite mugger but i was just copying some due tutorials. caffeine really gives me a headache but i like drinking coffee stuff. i don't know why people think that studying in town is weird or wearing uniform to town is weird either. i think maybe cos we kind of "grew up" there in our rgs uniform and often lovely t-shirts and shorts too that it feels like home to us, plus i don't see what is so glam about town that you musttt dress up or whatever. just a point.

don't you ever wish you could know how life would have turned out if you had chosen something else? what if i joined netball in sec 1? would i still have been the slacker girl? (ok actually i know the answer to thi-- yes. just that i would've been more busy.) what if i had continued with jap? what if i had gone overseas to study after Os? what if i chose ac instead of mj? what if i continued with arts instead of going to science? what if i chose tennis instead of netball? what if i had/hadn't done that, or that or even that? but we can't, and we can only guess. someone once told me that whenever you face a decision to make, the universe is split into two. this got me thinking and if there are parallel universes, there would be countless of them.. i'm going to stop thinking because if i carry on, my head will explode.

my make-up remover ran out so i have bits of mascara stuck to my lashes.. and i just remembered there's talent management tomorrow morning and i absolutely have to go because the teacher reminded me about three times and he even said, "please try not to be sick." i wanted to see a doctor today about various stuff but too lazy and sleepy. mmm i'm eating nian gao (you know the brown stuff which is sticky and sweet fried in flour that you eat during chinese new year) now.. and how fattening are milkshakes? because i am drinking at least one milkshake a day.

i talk too much and i am going to shut up now. i want to stop blogging but i cannot bear to leave this place. i want to record every single detail of my life so that i can always look back and remember but i don't because it's too tiring and too dangerous.

2006-03-03T00:32:00.000+08:00

i am so happy! mj has declared tomorrow a holiday because of (relatively) good A level results. congratulations to those who did well and cheer up, you who didn't meet your own expectations. i'm going to spend this weekend getting some r&r as usual, and hopefully some under the sun! as well as getting some work done. netball has been encountering some problems but i think and hope things will turn out ok as long as we work together : ) and it's nice to hear them say i've been improving though i really don't think so especially because i am in a perpetual daze during training after my s paper classes. it's like after feeling stupid in class because they all seem to speak in greek, i continue to maintain that level of stupidity on court.

a picture from danceworks (naomin the lovely mj dancer in white)!

tj and mj contingent of rgs girls

have a great happy birthweek my dear maybs! the first one amongst the satc girls to be legal to do the things we have been doing. group picture (maybs the birthday girl in the cap)!

nydc has a new menu.. added some stuff but no more (never available) mushroom monsters. i tried the tortilla wrap which wasn't too bad. but prices have generally gone up by a buck or two.

you win some, you lose some. i have sacrificed a reckless but more exciting lifestyle for a mundane but safe one. but i stop and think, and i realise that excitement can be derived in so many more ways. it is lovely to find joy in the simplest things in life : ) do you know who used to find joy with me in the littlest of things? my favourite cath/spinkie who never fails to love/annoy me no matter how i ignore her or be fierce to her or scold her. i know we were supposed to have our books where we can write about everything to each other, but i didn't know that time and energy were so against us. i miss you too, life will be better with more of you around. things will change for the better someday.

anyway, i've heard complaints about the pinkness of my blog. so here goes. even though i use mozilla firefox, i don't know how to get my layouts to suit that, so only looks alright on internet explorer. great.. i've been slacking online instead of doing my gp essay which was due on wednesday but i cannot be bothered anymore, i'm going to sleep.

2006-02-26T00:16:00.000+08:00

the last movie i've watched in a cinema was the chronicles of narnia. the last movie i've watched in singapore in a cinema was harry potter and the goblet of fire (which was in freaking november). today, together with chinleng, maybeline, sijia and cheryl, i watched final destination 3! oh goodness it is one scary shit show, i am embarrassed to admit that i screamed loudly with careless abandon more than once during the course of the show (and so did chinleng). it's definitely better than the second one, but i haven't watched the first one before, so i cannot comment on that. it's good in a b-grade sense, of course. but it's also seriously fucked up because i think i won't ever enjoy fireworks anymore, nor will i enjoy taking photos that much anymore and i seriously doubt i will ever go on a rollercoaster ride again. i need a movie-partner!!! i want to watch 9281018583 other films!

went to ac arts night on friday, the theme was havana nights (but i went in ac tee anyways)! there were bands, beatboxing, acapella and salsa etc, pretty good, especially the first half! it was funfunfun, then had supper at holland v's coffee club with kwong and sheilalala. everything was great except my cab fare home haha! i miss 410 people sooooo much!

couldn't wake up for tm class again. school is getting very tiring. went down to support naomin/mj's dance at marina square today.. first time i've been there since its renovation! oh and patrick whose hiphop class chinleng and i used to attend was one of the judges for danceworks. i love candy empire! but i will like it more if they had big moro bars and the potato chips that i love from new zealand. i bought a willywonka's bar but it melted pretty badly cos i probably hugged it too much during the movie..

in short, the weekend has been pretty good to me : )))

2006-02-22T22:01:00.000+08:00

during chemistry lecture today, i opened the pack of Fruit Loops spinkie gave me : ) but i found a hole in the packet so i knew it was "lao hong" (crispiness/crunchiness has been lost). nevertheless, my friends (abigail and siusing) and i still ate it. it was much fun because i arranged smiley faces and letters on abigail's worksheets, and i left all the blue ones till the end and tried to stack them up but failed so i just popped them into my mouth. i lurveee blue Fruit Loops and m&m's!

hahahaha the whole j1 ruggers and j2 netballers thing is making me laugh out loud to myself in my room. i am sure that my family thinks that school has driven me to extreme madnosity. just read this and this man. actually people won't get it unless they know the "whole story". just check out the drawing of chinleng done by a j1 rugger.

oh no!!! oasis's concert is tomorrow and i am not going!!! my sister went to franz ferdinand and she got to meet the band too which is totally cool tunes. jason mraz, please come soon!!!

some lovin' with my favouritest charmie today! but i didn't manage to satisfy my donut craving cos there were none at starbucks@lido, had to make do with mocha frap and subway cookie. bought a belt but it was justified because i resisted buying shoes. ooh charmie said i am fair now : )))

fuckityfuck i am so tired (as usual!!! i have the Tired Syndrome where you are perpetually tired from doing nothing and everything) that i cannot move from the chair to go and bathe and it is already past 10.30p.m. tomorrow is absolutely dreadful.. thursdays are horribalamus. good night, world.

2006-02-20T23:36:00.000+08:00

very very very tired, as usual. ate about four and a half and a half and a half meals with snacks in between, as usual. after school today, i came home to bathe and eat dinner before going back to school to attempt to crammitycram for physics which wasn't that productive. i'm left with two more chapters to skim through, an entire econs tutorial, math assignment and math s worksheet which i will not complete because i will never get to my favouritest lalaland. i missed two weeks of desperate housewives already, i have to resort to downloading the episodes.

man, i wish i could guzzle on chocolates all day long like a professional chocolate-guzzler. and i have derived new joy from life.. making up cool words. life is a total horribalamus (read: very horrible). following in the footsteps of georgia nicolson, my new best friend.

i cannot be bothered by that. no way in the world.

2006-02-18T11:34:00.000+08:00

i haven't been watching mtv much nowadays. for one, i've finished up all the episodes of laguna beach already; and two, the schedule is pretty bad, like today there're five episodes of room raiders back-to-back from 9.30p.m. to midnight. there are only that many times you can watch people raid rooms, dirtying strangers' underwear or jumping on their beds or finding porno mags.

it is inhumanely bright outside. i am thankful for my dark grey curtains. i'm waiting for all the saturday-training people to finish their training so they can meet me but i forgot to arrange a time with them. mannn it's too hot and bright to go out! it's this bloody sunny every fun-o-rama. i am also very tired and aching slightly. ooch ooch ooch when are they going to be done, i hate waiting around purposelessly. plus my wrist is going to drop off i really don't know what is wrong with it and worse, i don't even know what actually caused this pain. ooh great their training has finally ended but i can only meet them in two hours' time! i will either spend this time doing some cool homework (not) or reading knocked out by my nunga-nungas. hahaha! the name game is playing out loud in the house right now. rachel, rachel bo bachel bonana fanna fo fachel, fee fy mo machel, rachel!

choices choices choices.

2006-02-17T23:33:00.000+08:00

went for rj's talentime and under the stars movie screening thing, not too bad i guess. there were some talents (and some lack thereof) and the judges' scores are kind of wonky some times (and i don't know the winners/losers cos we left the canteen already). 50 first dates is a nice show! it's better than i thought it would be. and there were actually quite a lot of stars for a singapore night sky. i am very tired now.. and i didn't get any work done today like i was supposed to. plus there is still fun-o-rama tomorrow at acjc zzz i will surprise myself if i don't get two Fs again.

mmm this is harder than i thought it would be.

ok i finished one book yesterday and another today (on the bright side, i'm now the girlfriend of a sex god).. i would really love to savour the books but they are too good to be read slowly!!! ok means i will probably all my books really soon and i will have buy new books! wow fun i have a whole list of books i want actually! exciting. have i mentioned i'm tired? and that i'm craving kueh lapis.. so bye.

2006-02-16T22:09:00.000+08:00

because i am very bored and i came across this on IVLE (the online thingie).

Dear JC2 students,

There will be an economics test on topic of inflation: caues effects and control. The test consists of 5 MCQ and 1 essay. The test will be held on 13.2.06 at 7.30a.m. sharp. Please report at LT 4 by 7.25 a.m.

Latecomers please be punctual

Thank you.

Economics Unit

Dear Economics Unit,

You must learn how to spell "cause" and realise that the phrase "latecomers please be punctual" is an oxymoron. Please do not highlight your own mistakes in red. The proper phrase should either be "Please be punctual." or "Habitual latecomers, please be punctual." I would also like to point out that it is probably against the Human Rights Laws to reach school at 7.25a.m.. It does not help that the Lecture Theatre has really bad air-conditioning, well, either that or the school sets the temperature at 34 degrees Celsius. Ok, I am very bored of this. I love economics a lot, so please give me many As.

Thank you.

Rachel Ooi

heh heh heh school is making me go mad! anyway as usual i went to training late because of chem s, didn't get to do much except run 3.2km which is a biggie for me because i am a lazy fart. and the best thing was i didn't even feel tired after that! this should happen more often. i should be feeling healthy and all but i don't and i attribute that to the fact that i ate about five or six meals today.

i've bought five books of the confessions of georgia nicolson series by louise rennison! the first of the series, angus, thongs and full-frontal snogging, is an autographed copy woo. i lovelovelove this series! i read it during chemistry, physics and maths lectures (but not econs because i love econs ha ha) (it was because naresh the hairyman walked up and down and left and right and he even saw me eating my wafers happily and gave me the omg-you-are-an-inconsiderate-girl-and-you-should-do-ten-economics-essays-as-a-punishment look). it is even making me think like georgia nicolson! i want to stay at home and read my books all day but i cannot skip school anymore. byebye and hello to georgia nicolson and her Sex God! : )))

2006-02-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

yesterday was a very speshul day because my lovely xuezie turned nineteenth!!! i hope you had a wonderful time last night, littlefoot, enjoy your last year of being a teen! : ))) i felt really bad because of my bad luck and my not being eighteen yet. we got turned down by acid bar, and balcony gave us really bad service (YES the service there sucks so please do not go there!!!), damn dumb la like five, six of us had proper identification except me : ( anyhow we settled for the observatory lounge at meritus mandarin! : ))) it was nicenice meeting everyone again even though they are all so damn free now while i still have to drag myself through this year. pictures i ripped from christina's blog because i haven't seen the rest online and they haven't uploaded the pictures.

from the observatory lounge

the fantastic view from the 39th floor

christinaaa / me

much love for our birthday girl!!!

haha i had a separate kiss-y photo with xuezie! i will put that up some day : ) i just love those girls. they make me feel alive again : ) somehow.

happy valentine's day <333 to everyone! flurry and fluster around school as people give sweets and flowers. gave the class chocolates cos five of us shared but i really really really forgot about buying presents and i felt so bad so i sent out a lot of messages to convey my TRUE love. adrian, chifung, edmund, karwee and lucien bought naomin and me a bouquet of roses each! haha quite embarrassing but super sweet of them : ) disclaimer: the pictures below do not do any of the items justice due to colour schemes and such.

sweets from various people, a pink rose from farz and a red heart-shaped balloon from ruiqi

the bouquet

huge roses!

my bedroom fluffies! (random picture)

my horoscope, cancer, for today: you are a lucky one -- you have a multitude of choices and you are attracted to more than one. who says you have to choose? why not take them all? the stars say more is best now.

heehee the stars know me best. ooh i watched cinderella just now! man, i used to watch my tapes so often, especially the disney ones! cinderella, snow white, bambi, thumbelina etc and i remember having doraemon, shi wan ge wei shen me (ten thousand whys) and even ultraman hahaha! ok selamat malam : ) but i'm not going to sleep yet, of course.

2006-02-12T23:01:00.000+08:00

after all that highness yesterday, today was blahed towards the end of the day. please forgive me for the lack of vocabulary, i will go learn new words soon! i am sick and tired of feeling the same every single damn day and this is even more evident to myself when i blog because i think about the same old damn things and complain about the same old damn things. how can i study for the economics test tomorrow when my mind is all over the place and i can't concentrate on any word in my notes? a million thanks to maybeline, chinleng and sijia for listening to my boring rants and my whining (i cannot help it) all day long.

please, do not make my night any worse by showing off because you are the most uncool person i know trying to be cool. let me tell you, it is not working and you have insecurity issues and i really really really don't like you. i don't give a shit about what you think or what you do or what you freaking think i should do. but because i believe in karma, i am being civil to you.

btw karma only works when you are doing things intentionally. so please do not worry about the ant you accidentally squashed just now. i hope they do not extend this to cockroaches because i firmly believe they should be squashed and flushed down the white porcelain bowl.

2006-02-12T01:46:00.000+08:00

ha ha ha! it sure feels like valentine's day is just around the corner because love is in the air!!! i can practically see the hearts flying out of me that it's VERY disgusting!!! valentine's day is another over-commercialised day but whatever!!!

let me tell you what i ate today! it doesn't seem like a lot but it is plus the fact i wasn't really hungry! ok i know sijia has heard this about three times. here goes nothing!

breakfast
bazhang (this is amazing cos i was totally craving for a zhang last night!!!)

lunch
black pepper chicken crepe with mushroom and cheese
apple crumble with chocolate ice-cream

snacks
cookies
coffee milkshake

supper
kueh lapis (wah mother nice kueh lapis from indonesia!!! sedap!!!)
tiramisu wafers

ok i was offered durians also but i feel too phlegmed up to eat that right now. wah i will attack the durians tomorrow before my dad does! and i am craving for some ritz carlton's bazhang now!!! woo. high on nothing and everything at 2.30a.m. in the morning! i am being all "psycho and schizo and random and weird" (quoted from sijia) now! ok i need to trim my hair very badly. it's all over the place!

i'm pretty satisfied with myself. i've finally learnt to say no.

2006-02-11T10:37:00.000+08:00

you guys will have to bear with the pinkness for a while until valentine's day is over! : ) the unbearable pinkness of being. ok i never knew the "republish index only" thing existed! i think it's useful if i want to sort of keep my old designs but since i discovered it four designs too late, i can only have one previous template for my blogspot. i think that is how it works. also, my computer is very retarded, both partitioned sides cannot access signmyguestbook and popsugar.com which makes me very irritated because i cannot read guestbook messages (however little) nor read one of my favourite gossip sites.

enough of the tech talk, there was talent management class this morning but because my parents were on a cruise, no one woke me up (i snoozed my alarm) and i overslept. i wasn't really in the mood to go anyways. i didn't skip school yesterday and still want to go to school on saturday morning. i'm supposed to meet clara and gang at 11a.m., which means i have bathe and get to orchard in ten minutes!

ok something stupid for you. it doesn't even make sense after a while.

a: hey juan, i have a question.
b: ok? shoot.
a: err i was thinking, what's the fastest speed a person can have sex without stopping?
b: hahah probably 68, because when you reach 69, you stop and turn around >8D
a: asshole LMFAO

2006-02-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

math s class is probably one of the most saturating classes i've ever attended, i kept pushing the chair in front of me i swear it was going to break if she went through one more question. i'm going to spend this weekend doing my past two chem s worksheets (because i didn't do them) and looking through this math one and actually doing some of it. training sucked today, rambo was in a bad mood which pretty much got everyone in a bad mood.

please don't fucking do this to me. i've had enough.

i wanted to make an incomplete and random list of things that will make me happy but i think i have to attend to my homework. such is the life of a cool jc student (who is going to fail today's chem test and has already failed math test with a big fat F, btw it is the first math lecture test in jc i didn't get an A for).

i need some sun and clear blue water and deck chairs.. plus my girls NOWWW. a day by the pool never fails to cheer me up : )

2006-02-06T19:19:00.000+08:00

school has been meaningless and stupid. am looking forward to training tomorrow. i wished my s paper lessons didn't clash with training.

some things are better left unsaid.

i can feel word vomit all over again. i will try to shut up this time.

speaking of which, i've been feeling nauseous a lot of late. food (except sweet stuff like chocolates and ice-cream) doesn't appeal to me as much anymore. maybe except indian rojak as well.

another song from my current favourite band.

the wallflowers - 6th avenue heartache

sirens ring, the shots ring out
a stranger cries, screams out loud
i had my world strapped against my back
i held my hands, never knew how to act

and the same black line that was drawn on you
was drawn on me and now it's drawn me in
sixth avenue heartache

below me, was a homeless man
i'm singing songs i knew complete
on the steps alone, his guitar in hand
it's fifty years, stood where he stands

now walking home on those streets
the river winds move my feet
subway steam, like silhouettes in dreams
they stood by me, just like moonbeams

look out the window, down upon that street
and gone like a midnight was that man
but i see his six strings laid against that wall
and all his things, they look so small
i got my fingers crossed on a shooting star
just like me, just moved on

2006-02-05T13:05:00.000+08:00

omgah what a fucked up night. please shoot me now. i'm going to be a pasir ris hermit forever bye.

that aside, it was pretty fun bringing out the china girls together with yiling and nora. life in china is some hardcore shit. their school days start from 7.20a.m. till 10.30p.m, on saturdays it's until about 6p.m. haha there are other stuff too but that is enough to kill me thanks. oh yes there are 60-100plus students in each class?! it's also super hard to get into university. crazy life.

rock for good@rgs evelyn norris hall with bee, chah, naomin and nat! six bands: skyjuice, crossbred, west grand boulevard, the suns (previously known as the boredphucks), ronin and electrico. not bad but each set was wayyy too long so we were there from 6p.m. till 11.30p.m.?! we went to sit/lie down after the first four bands.

went down to the pavilion which i realised is the place i helped out in the launch of the singapore disability sports council. lovely. bloody bars were makeshift (like the ones at the ngee ann city countdown). ok i didn't drink any water last night after drinking so today i had the king of headaches omg i think it's the first time ever i had a hangover. but now it's gone. supposed to bring the china girls out today with nora and sarah but i have to stay home because people are coming over to look at the house later.

spent too much on random things! i bought a better, blacker, more expensive eyeliner this time! ok la just three bucks more haha. i'm going to do more productive things now bye.