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i am emotionally scarred for life. please refrain from talking to me. this is a traumatising position to be in. comforted myself by eating a chocolate freckles peak, together with shuli and her ring-a-ding-a-ling.

wow the most painful dentist trip! my teeth feel like they are suffering from rheumatism. did x-ray, scaling + polishing, x-ray and had a flouride treatment which tasted so good that i swallowed some. i have more than ten fillings to do but will not do them at one go.. i wanted to whiten my teeth too but i didn't know it cost one thousand dollars! i will wait till my teeth is more yellow before i do it haha. i will take care of my very unwise wisdom tooth hiding underneath my gums because i don't want to extract anything!!!'

my first sortie tomorrow morning!!! i am freaked out. part of me is hoping the plane will crash and i'll die in it.. unfortunately i want to live to mug and take the exciting promos.

dsquare brought ginger to pasir ris park for some dog competition today and she came in second in a contest! she lost to a siberian husky, which i suppose is around three times her size. we have a new dog in the house!!! : ))) she's a whippet, a kind of greyhound. she's awfully cute! and scared. and small! her fur is superrr soft and nice to the touch. two months old : )

snacks spree shopping just now! hopefully they can last more than two weeks. even though i usually take less than one to finish these. two kinder buenos, soft nougats, corncrisp rittersport, whole pack of funsize snickers, chocomint, yogurt and more : )

off to play with doggies, eat my subway and watch some chick flick! i love dogs! i love subway! i love chick flicks!

i am happy! my comp is finally fixed! but now i am not used to the smaller screen. i have strong urges to fiddle with it and install all my programmes and games and upload all my photos and songs but i really should be doing my work! i will take time off one of the weekdays to do it since monday is the last netball training! i love my comp!

when i grow up, i know i will be a great spy : )

i thought groundschool started at 1.30pm today but kaiyin called me at 9am sounding very frantic, asking "where are you?!" of course i was still sleeping but i bathed and ate and cabbed down within half an hour : D but i had to buy another shirt cos i left mine at hyatt last saturday when we went to help steph. kaiyin bought a size 40 shirt for me which is rather big but he says it's good cos i can eat more and grow into the shirt. jalan kayu-ed for lunch!

hanging out with hendrick in town was funny.. then brenda, chin and sijia finally came! went along to meet my favourite bee of all time whom i haven't seen in ages!

usually i only drink mineral water, plain water, peppermint green tea or milk, but today i drank milo (my favourite in primary school), root beer and coke light! just thought that is something i haven't done in a long time.. drinking many different drinks in a day. haven't eaten at kfc in years, so had a meal there today. had my favourite subway too! and a no nut fudge brownie from famous amos. chilli crabs for supper now. i see why i am a dinosaur.

ooch. there are not enough hours in a day!!!

after going offline to study for the chemistry test, i fell asleep promptly on my bed with my chemistry notes next to me. having not done any of my chemistry tutorials and ponning quite a few tutorials and zoning out during lectures, i left about 80% of the test blank. i forgot to write my name and class so my paper with the blank front page was waved around in front of the entire (but, thankfully, small) lecture theatre. warned miss teo about my wonderful test beforehand.. anyways, unsurprisingly, i got 6.5/40, but surprisingly, not the last in class. she was very disappointed with the class and gave us a lecture for the first time. she came to talk to me and said that i "have better grounding" because i was from rgs and that i should take pride etc. i wanted to tell her that i have about zero grounding because i bumbled my way through chemistry in secondary school but i thought she wasn't in the state to take another blow like that. i will confess soon.

on a happier note, the class did well for the math test with 22 out of 25 students getting As! alden, yiling and i got 27/30 which is the highest in class, but not considered excellent. please pardon me for being all statistical, but to motivate myself to work harder, i'd like to state my progress in print.

i bought a lot of old school sweets yesterday! fizzy cola, milton, the chocolate cow things, green peas etc! i shall post pictures of more more more old school sweets and snacks next time : )

sleeps with butterflies - tori amos

airplanes
take you away again
are you flying
above where we live
then i look up a glare in my eyes
are you having regrets about last night
i'm not but i like rivers that rush in
so then i dove in
is there trouble ahead
for you the acrobat
i won't push you unless you have a net

you say the word
you know i will find you
or if you need some time
i don't mind
i don't hold on
to the tail of your kite
i'm not like the girls that you've known
but i believe i'm worth coming home to
kiss away night
this girl only sleeps with butterflies
with butterflies
so go on and fly then boy

balloons
look good from on the ground
i fear with pins and needles around
we may fall then stumble
upon a carousel
it could take us anywhere

i have forgotten how to have fun.

and my hair is frizzing up again.

does anyone know good destressing techniques or something? i now believe that stress causes my pimples and weight gain.

sleepy..

i'm never going to step on a weighing scale again. at first i thought the hyatt weighing scale was lying, but perhaps it wasn't. so unless i feel less like an elephant, i will never never never go jeans-shopping. i just cannot stop eating, and when i am not eating, i am thinking about eating, and when i am not thinking about eating, i am dreaming about eating.. i am certain my mum gave me an overdose of appetite boosters when i was younger (because then, i hated eating).

i suspect my wisdom tooth is growing. is it true you have to extract it?! i really hope not : (

i know this is getting old.. but i keep thinking about the past. i would give anything to be less jaded, and happy like before. not saying i am not happy now.. i think what i really meant was being happy-go-luck, not giving two fucks in the world. days when we ruled the school : ) ok guess what? i shall go read about ionic equilibrium now in case i get an F tomorrow instead of an AO i'm aiming for.

my house is in need of a new tv ever since the last one kind of died, but i guess we're not really caring. i want one of those mini movie theatres you see on mtv cribs! way cool : ) also, i wished i had a friend like lo (laguna beach)! she is the absolute cutest!!! haha though i know wanzi wants to slap her. but of course friends like chinleng and sijia are sufficient.. i had a really fun time with them helping steph with her makeup at the hyatt where st. francis methodist was having their prom night and talking cockloads at bigO. analysing yourself and your friends is pretty fun.. so is talking about the past. it is rather strange how i detach myself from things quite easily. i guess it comes with practice. it has been a long time since there was something concrete to be emotional about.. being sane and sensible has turned my life into a straight-laced, boring one. pros and cons, pros and cons.

to a certain polkamom: i am not the one who forgets, but is the one who is being forgotten. -coughhaanhuicough-

to a certain bee: movie date soon, yes? we could throw in some studying, just like nerds do : )

i wanted to blog more but i feel like going to the toilet and my mother came back with horfun. i'd better not come online tomorrow because i have a million things to do!

haha i think the aces day dance is quite fun!!! i sound like a total spas but yeah! i miss learning how to dance (hip hAp lessons with chinnie!).

i am against any single sex school going co-ed, really empathise with the victorians. so far, i haven't met a vs boy who doesn't love vs, which is really really really odd. victorians just love victoria, for reasons i cannot fathom. i will seriously puke blood and die if they ever decide to merge ri and rgs, but i don't suppose it'll ever happen, because the through-train programme allows them to 'merge' in jc. haha actually, that sounds pretty gross already.

rawr i have to study for the groundschool test! and there are four other tests next week. i realised i have completely no idea what goes on for chemistry and physics. mmm doing well in small things make me feel gooood : ) like getting highest for compre and summary (CHINESE HAHA TAKE THAT!!!) exercises and being praised for having really neat graphs for curve sketching.

was reading my sec 2 blog and i sounded like a total moron. i noted some things.. i did a quiz, "which piercing are you?" wow and my result was a tongue piercing, quite a prediction huh. though my reaction then was eww gross! i complained about rgs dictating everything, but actually meridian is worse (in relation to stuff like ponning)! i got to know mr sparkling eyes and mr sparkling eyes lookalike whom i gushed about (as in we are friends now). my obsession with food and ponning school started from long ago.. and times were fun and slack in sec 2. remember the corners' pledge, the tazzo-hating, the ofelia-slamming, lulu, bryna+cesca, getting booked all the time and so many other things, aww. stefeeshead: remember you went to watch john q alone haha i just had to say that!

ahh i am always feeling hopeful on fridays : )

anyway is it no longer a fairytale when it happens this way? i'd so rather it be a fairytale : (

i am trying to discover my inclinations, but it is rather difficult. i don't seem to have a particular area of interest except for slacking or having loads of fun or getting into trouble (or constantly trying to stay out of it). i was looking through the scholarships and a lot of the better ones require the applicant to possess leadership qualities. that's really bullshit, if all the good people lead, and the followers are just crap, what's the point?! i am a good follower.. or maybe i am neither a follower nor a leader, that is pretty good, isn't it?! something different from the rest, just what the world needs : )

i have this loveeeee for herb bread! i can live on it. my classmates are bad influences, they egg me on to eat ice-cream and other things all the time, no wonder my waistline is increasing exponentially!

sometimes i am too abstract in this blog, so when i look back, i have no inkling what i was talking about at all.

having a little trouble switching my cca. i really like the netballers though! i'd just rather play tennis instead.. but i don't know anyone in tennis rec. miss choy was really nice about stuff. i've also decided not to sign up for the sats prep classes but to practise together with sijia instead : ) therefore, i will continue with yfc because it doesn't really clash with anything now, perhaps only my social life.

went to the scene at wisma atria to have my haircut today, with charsie berwussy accompanying me!!! generally it looks the same, except my fringe is shorter and my ponytail looks kind of retarded. i miss lido times! playnets, popcorn soon? both salty and sweet, please : )

ok i am pissed off again. good bye.

i was feeling totally shitty with a capital, bolded s, and very very very emo when i went to do the wu-name thing and i got Asthmatic Enemy of God which i found to be very appropriate because right now i feel 1. asthmatic from not being able to breathe through my nose, 2. like an atheist, 3. extremely rebellious.

i will give anything to turn back time.

i hate myself right now. why am i like that when it comes to such things?! hah anyway i am quite sad.

i took time off from school today (green slipped at 10.30am) to spend about ten hours doing ONE math tutorial. lovely. anyway i am seriously thinking about dropping netball. maybe switch to recreational tennis.. ok i know i keep talking about this and all the various things going on but it's really stressing me out because i am afraid i cannot handle all these. shall sleep soon because i have seven hours to spend at yfc tomorrow and i.. ah fuck. feel like giving up.

anyway hanging out with chinleng and maybs over two-dollar mee goreng was cool. which reminds me about this morning's econs debate.. haha the girl team lost (aka us aka proposition team). it's ok, i admit defeat. gerald was good.

: (((

but every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
turns out, everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

it has been a long time since xiaolongbaos. days when we trot down to crystal jade after school and talk over longs after longs of xiaolongbaos.

strangely, i didn't like charlie and the chocolate factory. my least favourite tim burton production.. but it got me buying merci chocolates.

rawr i hate you!!! i don't like people who are evil to me.

i wish i could wear black eyeliner all day long.

blogger totally pissed me off with its smart alec way of changing the html itself which just screws things up sometimes. math pissed me off too, so much that i half-crumpled yiling's tutorial (i am so sorry i will go iron it later). i am in a bad mood also because my lovelies left me already and i probably won't see them till.. oh maybe chinleng tomorrow. ok great my mood is slightly uplifted now. if you think i am some kind of schizo, you're probably right.

national day hardly means a thing to me. except that it is somebody's birthday : ) two people to be fair, both are speshul to me in different ways : )

gotham was ok, totally packed, i thought it was quite smart that the spillover went over to cocolatte. the way we breezed through the queues, bouncers etc was the best part of the night. ahhh girls, i am so sorry for being perpetually sian and stoned nowadays. instead of leaving my handphone at home like the previous time, i think i left my brain at home last night. don't worry, i didn't do anything stupid except screaming fuck you a lot to titus (together with chinleng haha) and talking really loudly at some other points. and yes i realised i have broken my resolution, but this time i really think we should steer clear of clubbing until chin's birthday is here.

i miss playnets! : ( my nua chah, my excited meishuuu and even the spastic jill!

there is too much clutter in my thoughts and in my life.. i am going to eat now.

how you live your life

you seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. you're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. you're open to new people and friends, which makes you a pretty popular person. you tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

you are 60% weird

you're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. right? but you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!

your summer ride is a beetle convertible

fun, funky, and a little bit euro. you love your summers to be full of style and sun!

your ideal relationship is polyamory

you want to have your cake.. and everyone else's. which isn't a bad thing, if everyone else gets to eat too! you're too much of a free spirit to be tied down by a traditional relationship. you think relationships should be open and free, with few restrictions.

your kissing purity score: 37% Pure

you're not one to kiss and tell.. but word is, you kiss pretty well.

haha quiz spree! most are quite true.. especially my convertible bug, yo! one or two lines are not really true (from my point of view), go figure.

partyforfrancesca@thepinesgrandballroom yesterday, not bad food haha the party was quite spastic/funny. bryna's so pretty! anyways, instead of dancing at newsroom bar, there was some dancing at the pines haha.

pesta sukan today, the weather was unbearable. as biyi aptly puts it, the sun's rays seem to converge onto kallang netball courts. left me with a really sexy sock and v-neck tan too. my nose gets really red and becomes visibly huge after being under the sun : ( i look like henry monster from sesame street. hum i still don't have any passion for netball or whatever.

school tomorrow?! rawr. there's one and a half hours of econs make up lecture, which is totally ridiculous, irresponsible and inconsiderate of the teachers because they are the ones who wasted two lectures (one on a totally dumb economics quiz/competition and another when the temasek secondary students sat in). and tons of work dued tomorrow, my teachers are sadists. this year, days, weeks and months flew by! but hours, minutes, seconds in school just craawwwlll.

i want my hair either dyed jet black or brown with blonde streaks. well black dye doesn't seem to stay and the latter will just get me into shit at school.

haha i really wanted to understand why but i think i just don't care anymore. though it wouldn't hurt knowing why (because i am such an inquisitive creature).

ok chinese here i come!

yfc orientation today, i am the only girl in course #138 (with 24 other guys)! and i am going to die juggling yfc and school and netball and friends and promos and the course and sats prep classes! pretty much all my saturdays are wiped out. one thing i wanted to do regularly but can't now is wakeboarding : ((( not helping that i watched herbie: fully reloaded when i was supposed to be clearing my backlog! anyway a word of advice: don't spend too much money on herbie, it's like.. pretty B-grade. mean girls was much better!

i'm damn tired.. feel like i am going to die. plus there is pesta sukan tomorrow. woo sure to die a horrible death. mmm perfect combination of feeling fat and unfit and stuffing oneself with peanut butter + chocolate creme oreos.

yes, before i forget again. i cannot find my harry potter books two to five. if you have them, can you please tell me and return to me asap? thankssssssssss. well if not i want to order the us version for books one to six because the covers are so much nicer than the other prints. unfortunately i am also trying to be very very very thrifty so i would much rather have my books back.. calling my harry potter books again! i will so kill my sister if it's somewhere in her two million cardboard boxes being eaten up by silverfish.

rufus wainwright - cigarettes and chocolate milk

cigarettes and chocolate milk
these are just a couple of my cravings
everything it seems i like's a little bit stronger
a little bit thicker, a little bit harmful for me

if I should buy jellybeans
have to eat them all in just one sitting
everything it seems i like's a little bit sweeter
a little bit fatter, a little bit harmful for me

and then there's those other things
which for several reasons we won't mention
everything about 'em is a little bit stranger
a little bit harder, a little bit deadly

it's not very smart
tends to make one part
so brokenhearted

sitting here remembering me
always been a shoe made for the city
go ahead accuse me of just singing about places
with scrappy boys faces have general run of the town

playing with prodigal sons
take a lot of sentimental valiums
can't expect the world to be your raggedy andy
while running on empty you little old doll with a frown

you got to keep in the game
retaining mystique while facing forward
i suggest a reading of lesson in tightropes
or surfing your high hopes or adios kansas

it's not very smart
tends to make one part
so brokenhearted

still there's not a show on my back
holes or a friendly intervention
i'm just a little bit heiress
a little bit irish, a little bit tower of pisa
whenever i see ya
so please be kind if i'm a mess

cigarettes and chocolate milk
cigarettes and chocolate milk

mmm will pay a million bucks to whoever can magic out perfect skin for me! hurhur or maybe i should just make a trip to the derma. anyways, sucks to be sick. for one, i can't exercise, and for another i can't taste much so i eat very rich foods to make up for eat, equals to fatsss. yes, just another girl obsessed with her looks. i do live with mirrors and it's not very pleasant looking at something horrifying especially when the seventh month (hungry ghosts' festival) is nearing. can you imagine the fright i will get when i wake up at night and look into the mirror and saw the ghastly reflection myself and freak out and scream and wake up the entire neighbourhood? not a lovely scenario. being sick also means a funny feeling is perpetually in my head, i feel like sleeping 24/7 and makes school six times as miserable!

mmhaa i love rambling : ) and i love those people i can ramble to even moreee! i love the song above too : ) just because it's cool and totally appropriate. rufus wainwright is coool blooo.

i have a heavy head now.. heavier than the usual heavy head. i went to school today because i realised i haven't been in school for the past three wednesdays. i might not go again tomorrow but i hate going to the doctor's and i don't like missing practicals or lectures ahh troublesome to catch up. i think this is bad karma for being such an asshole slash bitch sometimes.. but being sick makes me even crabbier. rawr alright i am going to shut up bye.

rav photos. looking at the pictures we took, i conclude that i have more oil on my face than opec controls and that i just couldn't get my smile right that night. i'm not a fan of flash either. the rest of the girlies look about two hundred times better than me : ) rest assured.

chinleng / ying / me

chinleng / sijia / elephant, haha check out the cheesy moulin rouge poster of dsquare behind us

ying / hongmin / chin / huili looking lovely because hongmin's ciggy burnt her, hopefully she doesn't hate me for putting this up. i crown this the photo of the night!!!

huili / chin / hongmin, this is to make up for the previous picture : )

the picture with most people, that's why i put it up. i look like a friggin' clown / tranny. can use as talisman to ward off evil spirits during the hungry ghosts' festival.

a picture of our hot karoke hostesses to top it off!

unfortunately we didn't take any photos with gloria and co. who looked really good! oh yes, i know i said i am never going back to rav again but i did. also, i said i would stop clubbing until after promos (or at least october 8), i was serious, i just forgot to add in that this week wasn't counted. really!!! aiight, i ain't got all night. i'm out of here : )