lazypau

i'm disappointed.. but there is nothing i can do about it. except to blame myself for being such a lazy arse and not studying enough etc etc etc. right now i have to think about what i want to do. i'm really confused and lost. i need to talk to some knowledgable people.

before i got my results, julie koh told me that i am the only one in the school to receive this ite application form and i was totally freaked out. anyway, turns out that moe screwed up. i'll have to wait for them to rectify this problem before i can apply for jc because i am not in the system. lovely.

i'm feeling totally emo. yawn.. retail therapy might work. anyhow, thanks be to God. i'm quite grateful for my results. congratulations to those who are happy with your results! to those who are not, it will lead to a better road as long as you don't give up.

we were meant to live for so much more
but we lost our way

hi ho merry-o! finally got to see xuezie and eww again! i miss them so much -squishes them-

went for medical check-up this morning but got to go back in a fortnight to do some urine test. it's this totally dilapidated and remote building in a smelly industrial area.. but i saw a cute boy (braces and small and wearing brown) and his semi-cute friend.

yawn.. i think my mother wants me to go rj. maybe to show off to her friends or something. but ultimately, she still leaves the decision to me.

i forgot to add that the zoo is a happening place, we bumped into a fellow meridian there : ) who's called zul, no less.

anyway, i have something to confess. i ran through some testimonials and i realised i miss a whole truckloads of friends and even acquaintances (from 410 to rgs to clubbers to random people). seeing familiar faces was something i took granted for. also, i miss clubbing. there, i've said it. the excitement and buzz, the people, the music which leaves you deaf for two days, the drinks, the lights or lack thereof, the dancing, etc etc etc.

anyone interested to go to the contact rugby clinic with me this sunday afternoon? : )

road trip!!! haha around singapore, that is. from pasir ris to boon lay to choa chu kang to mandai to ang mo kio to tampines and back to pasir ris at long last. the zoo was so fun!!! we could see all the cool/cute animals, including jeevan's relatives. i want the horse and the guinea pig and the prairie dog and the meercat and the sealion and the squirrel to be my pets. i tried to lure one of the prairie dogs into my cap. when i grow up, i want to be a sealion! after all that walking around, we were rewarded with ben & jerry's : ) watched ray in a cinema which has a temperature of about 3 degrees celcius. fernn is really adorable, everyone should be in love with her!

our class rocks and we have to part after two months.. results are out on monday. God bless our souls.

because life is not a fairytale. so many times, i've been robbed, of so many things irretrievable. i've understood that life is hardly perfect.

i know i've been highly pms-y the past few days, sorry to those who were inflicted with my mood swings and other nasty things.

i'm in a holiday mood now : ) school ends at 9.30am tomorrow and we have thursday and friday off, all thanks to the college opening ceremony, followed by the weekend. but i should really do maths and please vincent. i am very excited about getting back O level results on friday/monday. happy and sad to sing the school song again and for the last time. rgs has the best school song around.

i miss having spinkie around to cheer me up or annoy me or to do silly things with. i miss zan + chah for stories and retarded jokes and horsing around. and everyone in the class, wonderful or not. i even miss weiting because cat and i could smash cake into her face and make her our slave. everyone is caught up in her own life now, memories of 410 are fading, slowly but surely.. if only we could put everything in a lead tablet and keep it in our drawers.

not only am i a second-intake orientation group leader, i am also a games i/c. surprise surprise. rachel will be forced to be enthusiastic once again. what have i gotten myself into?

i didn't manage to watch the ring in the end. slept till nine the next morning.

admist chocolates and roses, let's remember that valentine's day is actually celebrating God's love, make God your valentine today. heard this during church's saturday night fever. there are four different types of love: phileo, storge, eros and agape. phileo is the love shared between friends; storge in the family; eros, a lustful, usually selfish love and last but not least, agape, the unconditional love, sacrificial and a love by choice, something that God gives us. phileo + agape = great friendship. storge + agape = family without fights and all the ugly things. eros + agape = great marriage. agape should be the foundation of any love : ) it is the love of our Father.

happy valentine's day to everybody: singles and couples and all those in between, family and friends!

newsflash: sin comes in balls now. it's called ferrero rocher. it means i've sinned no less than thirty times in two days.

my chinese new year revolved around bak kwa and chocolate. ooh lovely. not to be consumed together. a lot of my relatives don't recognise me. it's either they ask "who is she?" or they think i'm my sister. umm, i will not treat the latter as an insult. upside is, i get truckloads of flattery -does the andrew thing of touching his chest and dismissing it with a wave and "no la!"-.

weekends are way too short. a tremendous task fitting eight things-to-do in two days. yawn. will tale a nap before watching the ring on hbo since i haven't watched the english version before. it screens at unearthly hour of 1.10am. lovely.. i will get the spooks.

i wonder how it feels after drinking water with powdered glass.

i am extremely upset over the disappearance of a stack of worksheets containing various things such as gp package, maths worksheets, econs worksheets, lit worksheets, neatly done maths tutorials, three well done math assignments (B, A, A) and so on. this is an absolute hindrance to my plan of becoming a mugger because i hate to lose such stuff (i need to file, revise, etc). it is such intolerable imperfection.

after 281647137 years, i finally got down to packing my room yesterday. but it was only a while ago when i realised the stack was missing. if i didn't pack my room, i know exactly where it would be: on the floor, like everything else. anyhow, i checked everywhere and i see no worksheets. i asked my dad if it was in the pile of paper i threw away and he said no because he sifted through the papers and said they were rubbish. this leaves me wondering where the stack could have gone. in fact, i don't remember handling it at all yesterday. this is extremely upsetting..

i've lost all mood to do my work. i am also having a terrible headache. if i was less clean, i would have searched the dumps by now.

when you catch a butterfly by its wings, the powder giving it such lovely colours is rubbed off. even if you let it go, it flies unbalanced. if it remains trapped, it'll slowly, but so surely, die.. it will flap its wings and struggle to free itself, but death is inevitable for the butterfly.

you're not supposed to catch the butterfly..

i give the milkshake at billy bomber's a thumbs-up. the food portions are huge!

went to uncle ricky's, wowee my thumb is much much much better now! even if i smelled like chinese medicine the whole of wednesday. i also managed to miss double chinese period : )))

today was eventful. i got soooo high! i haven't laughed so much in ages. the kind when you laugh till your abs hurt and you desperately want to stop but you can't, and you continue vibrating with laughter. extremely therapeutic. wore the acjc's guy uniform, went around with jeremy chanting, "ac, ac! ac, ac!" another highlight of the day is me giving andrew a haircut. although i thought the change is minimal, andrew says he is loving the haircut more and more! : ) i'm an andrew-approved hairstylist! being a professional, my tools were simple, a comb and a pair of foldable scissors.

watched hamlet + much ado about nothing during lit lecture. much ado about nothing was funny, witty humour, smart comebacks. i wished we could sing instead of talking. life would be one great musical.. mmm lovely. or perhaps we could talk like them.

realised i haven't been blogging, that's because i haven't been coming online. would continue but i'm getting sleepy and i still have to do chinese homework. unfortunately for my social life, i have discovered the joys of mugging.